i was so sad over this one wolf.
so much shit was going between him and i.
i felt like i was going crazy tbh.
some people can have a powerful energy that draws you to them.
you can both be drawn to each other,
but if it one is fighting their attraction to you,
it can lead to a lot of emotional warfare.
so all last year,
i was listening to heartbreak songs and albums.
fuckin’ driver’s license from olivia rodrigo…
the chorus of this song made me feel like she was singing my feelings out loud.
i use to keep this part on repeat real heavy too:
I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Can’t drive past the places we used to go to
‘Cause I still fuckin’ love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
Sidewalks we crossed
I still hear your voice in the traffic, we’re laughing
Over all the noise
God, I’m so blue, know we’re through
But I still fuckin’ love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
anything that expressed my sadness was all i wanted to listen to.
i was listening to toni braxton’s album “speak” for the first time.
it was more of a heartbreak album but i found it to be so boring.
i realized something…
I’m over the sadness.
as of late,
i want to listen to feel-good music.
anything that makes me feel like the baddest fox alive.
i want that energy in my life as i’m working through my issues.
i don’t want to listen to any sad music right now.
my spirit has been rejecting it.
even if a sad song comes on,
i don’t attach a face or person to it.
i want to start the new story of the fox who came back better than ever.
i feel more confident to meet someone new and get the dick i deserve.
i’m starting to feel like a whole different fox this year.
when you are going through it,
listen to all the emo music and watch all the sad movies that you need to.
my therapist told me to feel all the sadness and hurt.
the sad shit is like lowkey therapy because it helps you process your feelings.
when you finally get over it or “him”,
everything will start to change and you will be the most eager to change.
from your thought process,
and the type of energy you want in your life.
“he” won’t hit your spirit any longer.
it’s truly his loss because i’m dope af and deserve so much better.
I’m on the way back Foxhole and I want to do some damage.