stop dating while lonely with low self-esteem

when you reach a level of success,
whatever that looks like for you,
i feel you have to be very picky with who you let in your life.
i’m all for using the good lookin’ blow doll for a good time.

that is what they’re there for.

I have always had a problem with dating while lonely with low self-esteem.

once you had made something of yourself,
you shouldn’t be fuckin’ with low-hanging fruit because it’s easier.
think of it as a power dynamic

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chris paul nearly got an arrest record last night on mother’s day

when i think of “unproblematic baller wolves”,
chris paul comes to mind.
he gets the award for “nicest nba cheeks” too.

if he is doing dirt,
it’s so low,
it’s 8 feet under.
i don’t what possessed a “fan” to fuck with his family during a game but…

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who hurt YOU?

who were you before you got hurt?
who were you before you got molested by your uncle?
who were you before you were stabbed in the back by your “best friend”?
who were you before you got cheated on by the “love of your life”?
who were you before you got HIV by that hyena who said he was clean?
we all were “someone” before another someone or something changed us.
i was “someone” too…

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is being harsh the only language black folks understand?

i don’t know about you,
or if i’m really late,
but i’ve noticed something within the black community.

Being harsh is the go-to method in trying to help “us”.

 disrespecting others in the community is what helps us learn the lesson.
that or bringing them down a notch if they want to do or be bigger.
have to whether we are straight,
gay,
trans,
vixen,
or male,
it seems like this attitude of “ruin them will help them“.
its often disguised as:

“You need to hear the truth”
“I had to hurt your little feelings for you to get it.”

…but it’s a vulgar and dehumanizing way to do things.
it makes you wanna give up and fling yourself off a balcony.
it’s my turn to give the harsh truth then…

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HE WAS ABOUT TO MAKE STARS OUT HIS CO-WORKERS ON ONLYFANS

a lot of folks are hired for sex work and do not realize it.
you go hook up with someone and a hidden camera is right there.

BOOM!

they are cashing in and you didn’t get a cut.
i meanzzzzzzz….
if you need to get paid if you’re gonna guest star in someone’s show.
gregory turner was gonna turn his co-workers into guest stars on onlyfans…

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YOU ARE STILL THE BADDEST EVEN IF HE DON’T WANT YOU NO MORE

He broke your heart.
He broke you.
Now he is in another situation on social media.
They look happy.
You looked happy once upon a time with him too.
So seeing them both,
it has annihilated your self-esteem and worth.

that was me yesterday.
it rocked my world because i was expecting the opposite.
i was expecting him to fuck up another person’s life.
nope.
this one seems different.
so my inner control panel wanted to revert to “old jamari“.
i wanted to lay around,
think about why i’m not worth it,
and compare myself to him(and everyone).
i was about to put on sad music to be an emotional wreck but…

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