r&b creates magic within me.
it can make me happy,
emotional,
horny,
or heal my broken heart.
when my soul is aching,
a good r&b mix-tape can do just that.
i’ve been feeling really out of it lately,
but my soul urged me to do something i haven’t done in a while…

Lay in the dark,
put on a good r&b mix,
and not think.

r&b music has a way of speaking for us when we can’t find the words.
you ever had that one r&b song that hit your spirit different?
like,
you listen to it on repeat because the words are YOU at that moment?
this is why it helps to lay down and look towards the nowhere in the darkness.
i can’t always explain what’s wrong with me,
but i know it feels like something is broken.

earlier,
i felt the urge to give up.
i’ve been fighting something that has been hurting me inside.

Heartbreak?
Frustration?
Loneliness?
Disappointment?
Feeling absolutely fed up with everything and everyone?

so i said fuck it.
after i took a warm shower,
shuffle “chilled r&b” on spotify,
lights went off,
and i laid down in order to escape reality.
hip hop would make me call someone and cuss them out so that’s dead.
i needed something neat.
everything seems to be connecting as different songs played.
answers and healing started coming to me.

laying in the dark,
listening to r&b,
is therapy.

low-key: my next era is stirring inside me.
i feel something good.