on the last day of february,
which i didn’t realize was the last day,
i randomly made the decision that i wanted a reset.
i was seeing a lot of signs about starting over.
i legit had a notification pop up on my phone:

“Begin again“.

um,
isn’t that weird????????
a lot of shit went down on the last day of last month or leading up to it that week…

My iPhone was acting up so I signed out of iCloud and signed back in. As soon as I did that, all of my settings were reset.

I started a new journal and titled it “reborn” a day before I made the decision to reset. Something within myself told me to title it that.

My PS4 controller finally died a few days before that.

Anytime I asked myself questions lately, I’ve been getting answers rather quickly. When I feel in my foxy senses that I’m going to hear from someone, they either call or text shortly after.

I made the decision to stop following two people that were close friends on “Find My Friends”. I was holding onto them out of emotional hoarding or in hopes we would talk again. It’s been 2 years for one and the other showed me who they are a month before that.

I can smell, feel, and imagine the life I want to be in within my imagination VIVIDLY. It has been happening over the course of the last few weeks.

…and then the crib I have lived in for over a decade might be coming to an end.

i find all of these things to be interesting coincidences.
as soon as i felt ready within myself,
everything either broke or came to an end.
not only that:

I feel a weird calmness within me.

i don’t feel like wallowing in depression as the old me lived to do.
don’t get me wrong,
i did have a little panic last week,
but i feel indifferent which helps me understand i’m not in control.

It’s so weird to feel like this.

…but i feel like all of this is happening for a reason.

lowkey: i feel like i’ve starting accepting instead of expecting.
maybe that’s it?