Eee-Yikes.

i love when i see this she-jackal doing the most.
( x see another the most moment from her here )
i remember every single @ i saw being idiots.
everyone was hoping that baby would change chrisean rock.
they hoped and wished when she left blueface,
she would be magically cured of all her troubles.

welp.
she was walking around the entire pandemic without a front tooth.
why would anyone assume otherwise from her?
so i’m gonna font this with my whole chest…

That pandemic really brought out the mental illnesses in many people.
For some,
severe mental illnesses.

just peep a majority of the shit on social media right now.
its all severe mental illnesses being disguised as content.

I’m mad that the government didn’t offer free mental health services AFTER the panny.

during the panny,
i got an email telling me that my insurance was offering free mental health services.
i was looking for a therapist for years but couldn’t find one to fit my schedule.
i had ALL the time in the forests.
there were folks i know who were too busy dancing on tiktok,
shacking up with their fuck buddies and desperate dans/dianas,
and traveling when they were told to chill tf out.
i learned how shady many associates in my life actually were.
they were grouping up and getting on apps like house party without one invite.
watching stories and seeing them bragging about a game night they had the night before.

I thought we were cool tho?

Aight bet.

i never felt more hurt than i did but i had to ask myself:

Why are you upset over people who aren’t good to you?

i addressed all of that and more during my sessions.
my therapist has had to drag me fur-less more than a few times.

during those heavy panny years,
it was just:

Me
The Foxhole
My Really Close Friends
God

i told myself that i’m not coming out this panny like i did coming in.
maybe God wanted me to have no distractions?
after two years,
i can honestly tell you that i did just that.
i’m in therapy and group therapy as well.

Not only that but I’m currently doing self therapy with shadow work.
We will discuss that soon because I want The Foxhole to try it.

it has been a journey but i’ve healed many aspects within me for my greater good.

these days,
we are seeing the after effects of how destructive the panny was for us.
you can’t just pray or fuck it away.

There is healing that needs a professional touch.

i’m so glad that i took the leap when the services were available.

lowkey: many of you have admitted to me that you started therapy.
that makes me really proud.