one of the last things my mother told me on her deathbed was:

“make sure you and your sister don’t get separated.
i want you both together.”

…and i tried.
if it wasn’t jackals circling her money,
it was relatives coddling her because she was “light skin”.

Foxhole,
it was a challenge.

i often wonder what our lives would have been like if we moved to florida?
we were supposed to go live with our uncle,
but tbh,
his life crashed and burned a few years later.
as my sister got older,
her mental health got worse and worse.
unfortunately,
we don’t have the kind of relationship my mother wanted for us.
she hits me up ever so often with “i’m gonna do better” DMS.
i don’t answer because she isn’t gonna do better.

i’ve been seeing a lot of discourse online about rue,
who is played by zendaya on “euphoria“.

people saying lexi was mean.
people saying her mother should have tried harder.
people saying they wanted a happier ending for rue.

mmm.

until you’ve loved someone struggling with addiction,
or severe mental health issues…

would never have went to that bitch’s wedding.

…not after she played in my face after fucking my ex.
damn sure wouldn’t be helping improve her life either.

although she is vibe,
on season 3; episode 7 of “rain or shine” on “euphoria”,
maddy’s recent downfall was being too kind.

i felt that in my entire spirit.
by answering cassie’s DM to reconnect,
and going back to something that God removed her from,
maddy ended up losing A LOT.
i was expecting a whole revenge plot from maddy this season tbh.
she fell for the okey doke and cassie reminded her that she was still beneath her.

sometimes,
we need to tell that spirit of forgiveness and re-connection to…

last night,
during the intro of “euphoria”,
something happened where i went:

“mmm.
this is too good to be true.”

it was about one of characters as a kid,
their mama met a potential step daddy,
and he was buying expensive shit to make her happy.
i was judging him,
waiting for the other shoe to drop,
when my friend said…

in my head,
and i’ve ( x fonted it before ),
something happened to flash brown.
i don’t know if it was when he was in prison,
or just the path of male sex work in general,
but his outcome is really interesting.
as you know,
he looked like this before:

^you can listen to this interview from 2015 on youtube

…but like a pokemon,
he has evolved into what appears to be his final to the final form.
an F-BI sent me “mya” and Foxhole…

sometimes after the breakup,
i know those “LooK YaLLz! ThIs Is mY MaNZ!” posts hit different.

i like megan thee stallion,
and i don’t understand all the unwarranted hate she gets,
but her relationship with klay thompson was a lesson in…

back shots?
bussy baby?
these are the names of the folks that ray j is cool with at the “gaygency”.
who in the what?
i can’t and also:

i thought ray j was near death or something?

at this point,
his career is just trolling.
he hosts shows on zeus and trolls on social media.
sounds like a cushy job for the ill and near death tbh.
anyhoo,
ray j was on cam newton’s show and cam asked him if he is gay.
how he answered…