he wasn’t interested in smashin’ me and now i think i’m ugly

i am not the sex app kind of fox.
i came to that conclusion a long time go.
many of us aren’t and thats okay.
i have bagged some sexy ass wolves irl by the vibes give off.

I’m giving eye contact
I’m touching an arm or shoulder
I’m showing hella interest that I’d be interested in that dick
I look good, dress, and smell good
I’m transiting all my sexual energy to whoever I’m into

gay males.
dl males.
curious males.
“would only be gay for you” males.
i feel like i try too hard when i’m on an app vs not paying attention irl.
a foxholer sent me a video of someone looking for a hookup,
but getting turned down in real time and caught on camera…

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jay versace doesn’t want to live past 30

i have enjoyed jay versace.
he has made me laugh during my dark periods with his content.
it saddened me when a foxholer sent me what he posted

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i guess they are finally realizing the truth about britney spears

One of the worst things you can do to someone with severe mental illnesses or drug addictions is to coddle them.

i see people doing this all the time,
especially family.
when i told people britney spears is severely mentally ill,
i got a lot of pushback.
as people with severely mentally ill people in our families,
this smelled very familiar to us.
i’m not even gonna cap:

The #freebritney movement did more harm than good imo.

it seems things have taken the turn for the worse.
tmz is reporting…

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another celebrity takes their life and we need to “check in on people”? (massive eye roll)

here we go…
a celebrity takes their own life and everyone remembers they are human.

“We gotta check in on our strong friends.”
“Please check in on people.”

…and other phrases that show me how self-absorbed we can be.
 stephen “twitch” boss decided to stop living yesterday.
we are left with a ton of questions

but suddenly…

We understand that people,
including our friends,
could be struggling too.

…which will only last a week.
we will repost their greatness and accomplishments AFTER they died.
this is what i’ve come to realized…

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while you were sleeping, i was dealing with rejection

the fear of rejection.

this morning at around 4 am,
while i was up due to anxiety,
i asked myself:

“Why are you scared of rejection?”

…because tbh,
the facts are,
my whole life has been constant rejection

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i BELIEVE in you and me

i came to a conclusion while listening to “i believe in you and me” by whitney.
the whole song is like the affirmations for a long-lost love.

 

she “believed” that they will return.
it was that word:

“Believe”

that word gave me my “a-ha moment“…

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