there are many gay males who don’t desire other gay males.
let’s be 110%:

we all grew up around and with straight males.

many of us weren’t exposed to “gay” anything growing up,
and if we were,
it was the obvious gay kid or that was us.
when we look back if we were the “gay anything”,
we can point out the curious straights who were interested in us.
it was easy for them to sniff us out to explore because we were different.
there is a certain “energy” they have that is attractive.
all they know is being straight so:

their default is trying to get us like they would a vixen.

that being fonted:
i can see why the curious straights would sniff out ej johnson.
in my head and how he use to be,
i can see why they would want to keep him a secret.
he use to be annoying and extra before he calmed all the down.
he has an interview on carlos king’s podcast that has everyone upset…

“have i officially hit rock bottom?“

that was the thought going through my head yesterday.
here i was,
looking stylish because that is who i am,
standing in a suburban forest line with a ton of white folks…

in my fantasies,
my manz is dominate AF on the outside.
he has that look of “i don’t play dat” but when he is with me privately,
bay-beeeeeeeeeeeeeee…

he has his submissive moments where he begs for it.

i can put a collar on him and walk him around,
while he is begging to get some.

there is something about straight wolves admitting they like getting pegged that drives me nuts.
i don’t know why this is.
anyhoo,
i saw a video the other day on “okhomo” on reddit and i gotta admit that it drove me nuts.

i love being told what to do but i love good communication so i’m different.
so i went down his wolf hole and further was driven nuts because…

being willfully ignorant and uneducated has consequences.
boasting about being a moron,
while having our rights and survival snatched bald is a choice.
its one thing to have stan wars about celebs and video games.

a whole other topic when our lives hang in the balance of a stan war in politics.

the day we needed to be entertained by even politicians was when shit hit the fan.
the day we let any and everyone hoe their souls for viral moments was the beginning of the end.
due to society getting so out of control now,
they are allegedly planning on allowing those with HIV to die.

yup,
pretty much just die.
i’m sure with no fucks to give about it either.

according to recent reports via “the hill“…

i’ll never forget someone telling me about people who perished in 9/11.
they said that many of those people probably don’t even know they have died,
so there spirits are stuck in a loop,
repeating that day over and over.
that is why there a heavy energy down there.
its literally an open graveyard.
who knows if we are walking by actual people or ghosts.
never forget.

when people say a house is haunted,
that means the spirit in the house hasn’t been released.
that is why i learned there is no reason to be scared of it/them.
we need to let it know its safe to move forward and be free.

follow me to where i’m leading with this.

earlier today,
i was talking with fancy and she mentioned negative self talk.
she said that its like…

i have a question for you:

are some males actually out of our league?
or is that the story we chose to tell ourselves in fear of rejection?

…until we meet someone who we think is “out of our league”,
and they show us that regardless of what we think we don’t have,
they are attracted to something we do have.
we been in our own bawdies for a long time so we know what works,
doesn’t work,
what we wish we had that would make things work,
and what has become “what we think makes us ugly“.
karaoke said something to me that i had to share with The Foxhole:

“people really need to start telling themselves a new story in their heads.”

i saw this thread on reddit and i wanted to share it on the Foxhole…