i’m not the popular one.
i’m not the onlyfans star.
i’m not the muscled-down fantasy for the gays hopes takes dick.
i’m not the one who gets his dick sucked.
by that,
i mean i’m not the one that people promote shamelessly.
i’m often ignored and wonder if i’m enough.
i’m not the one who people think of first for invites or vip spots.
it would fuck with me real heavy.
i thought about it like this…

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i remember the first time i ever ate mcdonald’s.
it was when my mother brought me to disney world as a kid.
when i got my first happy meal toy,
i was so fascinated.

Burger,
Fries,
Drink AND A TOY?!

it felt like i was being rewarded for eating.
over the years,
i’ve felt like mcdonald’s has changed.

Maybe I have changed?

i can’t eat mcdonald’s nowadays without my stomach being violated.
last time i ate mickey dees,
which was many years ago,
i was shitting my brains out in the old navy bathroom on 34th street.
when i go on a road trip,
i’m gotta find a new spot to eat since fast food is all down the highways.
i went down the rabbit hole of watching videos from food insider yesterday.
they were comparing fast food in other countries vs here in the US…

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My neighbor took their own life the other night.
I heard everything.

we talk about those who take their own lives,
but we never speak on those who are affected by it.
family,
friends,
co-workers,
and people that were close to the person.
there are lives that are changed forever after someone ends their existence.
as a former suicidal person,
i fully understand the trauma of what it leaves behind.
on the other side,
i fully understand wanting to stop the pain too.
even writing about it today isn’t easy for me.
foxhole…

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from what i remember,
jussie smollett was one of the favorites on empire.
next to cookie,
who was played by taraji p. henson,
and andre’s butt which was attached to trai byers.

jamal was the gay brother who was the underdog on the come-up.
jussie was also lee daniel’s golden child too.
the straights were rooting for him.
so when his brother,
jocqui smollett,
said the black community didn’t save jussie because he is gay…
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whenever the powers that be wants to change something,
my first response is:

“What’s the scheme?”

it seems they are trying to make daylight savings time permanent…
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last night might not have been my finest hour.
maybe it was?
i dunno.
i’m not perfect and when something gets me tight,
i’m not immune to not going tf off.
in the morning,
i had to check a family member who offended me…
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