i keep telling folks that being a celebrity or content creator isn’t easy.
don’t get me wrong,
there are perks that come with fame.
it can be very mentally and emotional draining tho.

It ain’t like our social media pages where we have full control of the narrative.

when we achieve fame,
we are a punching bag for the general public.
everyone will pick us apart with a fine tooth comb.
everything we say,
do,
and the people we choose to screw.
if we are perfect then our partners get it.
if we are flawless,
there are jackals waiting in the shadows for something to us against us.
i find that black vixens don’t always have it easy.
bey and rih did not have it easy but had backings from their day ones.
i’m thankful they are at point where everyone has no choice but to kiss their ass.
i saw a video of serena williams that made me compassionate for her…

Yesterday was…
Well…

i had all intentions of coming on the Foxhole after my errands yesterday.
i had a plan yesterday morning.
God often laughs when you make plans but this might have been the devil.
well i ain’t laughing.
so i got a call from my therapist just as i was on the way home.
i never get any calls from her outside of the days of my session.
she tells me…

remember after the rih and chris brown debacle,
chris brown defenders were all like:

“THE TRUTH IS GOING TO COME OUT ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED IN THAT CAR!”

i always asked if they were in the trunk and i was met with silence and grimaces.
i love playing devil’s advocate with these hoes.
the next week or month after the incident,
he throws a chair through a window at gma and i’m met with:

“They were picking on him and they made him angry asking him questions!”

i concluded there are a lot of simple bitches out here.
so i saw today that in megan and tory debacle,
kelsey nicole who was the best friend of megan and full blown attentionista,
is going to “speak” on some podcast:

Kelsey Nicole Harris, Megan Thee Stallion’s ex best friend and one of the key witnesses in the Tory Lanez trial, is sitting down for her first interview since the entire ordeal.

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— Mílagro (@MobzWorld) February 28, 2024

not this dateline exclusive podcast.
and i think many of us are collectively here to let kelsey know…

i was sitting here this morning,
reflecting before i started my day over a dream i had about work wolf.
i had to answer a question during shadow work and i conjured him from the emotional dead.

It made me realize how much of a Pick-Me I use to be.

yes i was.
i was a pick-me with no boundaries who was desperately trying to get picked.
in order to find yourself,
you gotta risk embarrassment but i ain’t embarrassed.
i’ll write it in big font:

I use to be a Pick-Me!

a pick-me can look like whatever or whoever and come from any social background.
there are plenty of IG attentionistos,
some of the baddest you ever seen,
that are putting up with all kinds of shit just to be chose.
you see how many of them get caught up being thirsty for sex.
so when i see charlamagne talmbout miss lady in the “who tf did i marry” saga…

I’m gonna give myself props.
I don’t care if you look like this tatted wolf above,
and you licked every part of my bawdy,
Ima need you to take your ass home once it’s done.
I don’t do “lets shack up and host dinner parties”.

so when i heard of folks shackin up to split bills with just anyone,
or just any random they are fuckin’ atm,
i gave that instant pause.
i couldn’t press the button fast enough.
it’s in-house penis and they help with the bills but we really don’t know people.
we learn the true characters of people once we move in with them.
like,
your whole shacker-upper could be a serial killing hyena like this jackal…

i think quincy brown is “handsomes”.
not only is he “handsomes” but he has wild charisma.

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even his step father knows he is “handsomes”.

he was born to be a star.
see what i did there?
no?
okay…
quincy was blessed with one of those faces to look at all day but Foxhole,
why “come” he did this..