one of my home vixens,
fancy,
called me in tears this morning.
she is feeling angry,
distressed,
stressed,
depressed,
and confused.
her feelings are valid especially during times like this.
even tho are seeing black folks fighting on the front lines,
for many,
mental health issues have been popping up.
no one is really fonting about it,
but we will…

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what i thought was a storm ended up not being one?
there was a point last year that i didn’t want to write anymore.
there was times i’d take 2 or 3 days from updating the foxhole.
i was tired,
stressed out,
depressed,
filled with anxiety,
and falling victim to the mixed signals of other males.
i wanna font about redirection today.
we might go kicking and screaming out of our comfort zones,
but it’s often times a blessing you don’t see yet.
let’s go back to janurary of this year…

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so let’s spin this in a positive way,
shall we?
i’m all about an oprah master class moment.
so i wrote a past entry about mj harris and corey slauson.
as you know,
or didn’t,
but they were going through relationship woes due to corey’s need for relationship freedom
corey wanted to fuck as many as possible; mj wanted something more exclusive.
( x see that entry here )
mj and corey have since broken up and mj filmed corey moving out.
this is a clip i saw on twitter…
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imagine people putting you under the microscope for your philandering husband.
everyone thinks you are stupid for not leaving him.
imagine everything thinking you faked your first pregnancy.
they have videos in slow motion of your belly in a sun dress.
imagine having people cheering you on,
but secretly hoping that you will fall off your throne to be replaced by lessers.

you couldn’t handle half the slander beyonce gets.

imagine being abused and everyone saying you provoked your ex into doing it.
imagine watching everyone choose and support you ex,
while everyone is slandering you for just being there.
imagine gaining a little weight and that being the subject of conversation.

you couldn’t handle half the slander rihanna gets.

imagine being a celebrity and you aren’t making hits anymore.
your movies are tanking or your songs don’t chart.
everywhere you turn,
someone is becoming more successful than you.
people you thought were in your corner and suckin’ the life out of the next big thing.
suddenly,
everything you do brings you bad press.
do you cuss everyone out,
hide under the bed,
or strategize your next game plan?

you couldn’t handle half the slander of being the star.

oh no,
but you’re getting upset because gays are in your comments on ig.
the same gays who are supporting your basic ass.
listen pineapple…

Continue reading “you can’t handle fame so shut down your ig please” →

“Pull the U-haul around.”

even though i was getting help,
it has been a long day.
it’s been raining on and off so it really set the mood for packing.
it was the perfect day to say goodbye…

Continue reading “i got too much baggage beloved” →

i’ve been feeling abused.
i’m not talkin’ or fuckin’ anyone right now,
but i’ve been feeling abused by someone i know.
it has brought my energy way down tbh…
Continue reading “you are abusive and never laid a finger on anyone” →