“it’s either maintaining a relationship or focusing on that schmoney.
you can’t do both.”
a friend said ^that to me today.
i believe it.
both require a chase.
they’re also both very stressful.
when you combine doing both together,
it can potentially run your ass raggedy.
i’ll be honest with you foxhole…
I’m not looking for a wolf right now
i was just saying to myself that i haven’t gotten fucked in years.
it’s not that i’m picky at all.
it’s that most of the males i lust after tend to be straight.
that’s the reality.
also,
i don’t know if you’ve noticed,
but most males have become hard core bitches nowadays.
it’s almost like dealing with a vixen.
i’m tired of the:
“we went out and it was great,
but he didn’t call back again.”
“he looked,
then i looked,
then he looked,
and nothing happened.”
or my personal favorite:
“i have nothing going on for myself,
but i have the nerve to be out here acting like a fuck boi.”
it’s like…
honestly,
i’m okay being single.
i spent so much of my life chasing a wolf that i’m not interested anymore.
don’t get me wrong,
i see cute/fine wolves all the time,
and will continue to post about em,
but i’m absolutely over the chase.
you can meet someone you vibe with heavy,
talk all day in texts,
go on a few dates,
and the shit fizzles the fuck out for absolutely no reason at all.
the worst?
the “i think he’s gay” straight male and do the “run around”.
not tolerated in 2018.
my current focus is:
i had a fantasy i won 750,000,000 dollars today.
that turned me the fuck on.
i was so happy that i stayed in that feeling for the entire evening.
see money is an object that you can control.
dick can’t be controlled so you don’t know what you’ll get.
when the wolf of my dreams shows face,
and doesn’t act like he gets a period every month,
then i’ll be interested.
when one comes in and is high key interested,
then i’ll be open to all the possibilities.
right about now tho,
cut me the fuckin’ check.
lowkey: not all of us are lucky to get into a relationship like…
…and be together for years and build successful companies.
Wow, so young. So jaded.
Lyfe in the comment above was right. All you gotta do is focus on yourself and stop looking and the right ones come along.
And be careful what you wish for. Relationships are a helluva a lot of work too and all those pretty Instagram and Facebook and Snapchat pics of “successful” couples don’t show that.
Be blessed and keep blogging!
Immanuel
I feel you 100% I’m over these closeted dudes and the cat and mouse game. I think once you start to focus on yourself, the right person will come along.