i guess it does pay to be nice.
as much as i complain about being “too nice”,
it’s only when i realize i gave my niceness to the wrong animals.
i learned that at my job today.
the day went one direction and ended up someplace else.
a good “someplace else”.
so my boss called us all for a meeting in the morning…
he was mad at something completely unrelated to me.
someone on the team messed up so i guess his motto is:
“if it’s someone else’s fault,
everyone is at fault.”
he legit looked at us and said:
“i will get rid of each of you.
i already have others lined up to take your places.”
that hit me like a ton of bricks.
i wanted to throw each one at him.
i gave this job all these years and i’m pretty much just a “number”.
for the rest of the day,
i sort of had an attitude.
i tried to snap myself out of it,
but it was written all on my face.
i was in the break room and one of the vps walked in.
she said that i’m always so happy,
i have been looking really sad.
after we had a talk about what happened,
you are so talented and that department doesn’t deserve you.
i don’t think this job deserves you either.
when you get out of your head,
and your own way,
that is when you will see the power that you have.
you have great energy and you aren’t invisible like you think you are.
i see big things for you.”
i was thankful for her kind words.
i went back to my desk and just zoned everyone out.
when i was leaving for the day,
i was approached by a snow wolf in the lobby.
he is in his late 30s.
i remembered him as a guest from my old job.
he would come in and we would randomly speak.
at the time,
i didn’t take anything of it.
i like talking to strangers.
all i remember is he would meet with the higher ups.
well he greeted me like he knew me for years.
“omg i’m so glad to see you here!”
he began to tell me how nice i was to him.
we started to catch up and foxhole…
do you know this snow wolf is the ceo to a major company in my building?!
one that specializes in entertainment.
he is a big fuckin’ deal.
the crazy part is,
i didn’t know he was a “ceo” years ago.
i just remembered him,
but i honestly forgot what he did.
he told me to come up and see him soon.
i will take him up on that offer.
since my job has shown time and time that they don’t appreciate me,
it’s time to find the best way to a new journey.
judging from his resume,
it seems he could help me more with my career than anything else.
i just don’t know how to approach him.