last year,
i was so sad over this one wolf.
so much shit was going between him and i.
i felt like i was going crazy tbh.
some people can have a powerful energy that draws you to them.
you can both be drawn to each other,
but if it one is fighting their attraction to you,
it can lead to a lot of emotional warfare.
so all last year,
i was listening to heartbreak songs and albums.
fuckin’ driver’s license from olivia rodrigo…
the chorus of this song made me feel like she was singing my feelings out loud.
i use to keep this part on repeat real heavy too:
I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Can’t drive past the places we used to go to
‘Cause I still fuckin’ love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
Sidewalks we crossed
I still hear your voice in the traffic, we’re laughing
Over all the noise
God, I’m so blue, know we’re through
But I still fuckin’ love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
anything that expressed my sadness was all i wanted to listen to.
today,
i was listening to toni braxton’s album “speak” for the first time.
it was more of a heartbreak album but i found it to be so boring.
i realized something…
I’m over the sadness.
as of late,
i want to listen to feel-good music.
anything that makes me feel like the baddest fox alive.
high-frequency music.
i want that energy in my life as i’m working through my issues.
i don’t want to listen to any sad music right now.
my spirit has been rejecting it.
even if a sad song comes on,
i don’t attach a face or person to it.
i want to start the new story of the fox who came back better than ever.
i feel more confident to meet someone new and get the dick i deserve.
i’m starting to feel like a whole different fox this year.
foxhole,
when you are going through it,
listen to all the emo music and watch all the sad movies that you need to.
my therapist told me to feel all the sadness and hurt.
the sad shit is like lowkey therapy because it helps you process your feelings.
when you finally get over it or “him”,
you’ll know.
everything will start to change and you will be the most eager to change.
from your thought process,
entertainment,
lifestyle,
and the type of energy you want in your life.
“he” won’t hit your spirit any longer.
it’s truly his loss because i’m dope af and deserve so much better.
I’m on the way back Foxhole and I want to do some damage.
Then check out Diana Ross’ new tune: Thank You…its on You Tube…its such a vibe.
Harking back to old Motown with a twist of now..
Give it a listen and you’ll be stuck repeating the words in your head…lol…
Toni Braxton’s album “Speak” ???
YES Jamari, I’m glad for you. You better zoo that damage!
Come thru Jamari. Nah, come the fuck thru!!
“Misery loves company.” is such a true statement, but we assign a negative connotation to it, esp when it may be directed to another person. We seek out sad songs on a subconscious level because we want to know that we aren’t alone in our feelings. Humans have a tendency to want to share feelings that may overpower them on their own. This can apply to joy, sadness, and anger.
You really aren’t missing out on anything. Think about it: do you really want a half hearted attempt at love? Do we want someone coming to us in halves or do we want a whole love? Once you process your feelings and see that you are so much more worth it, you will start to see changes. Once you start to treat yourself better (talking in general terms), you will see that the whole world will want to laugh when you do. People will want to be apart of ya wave because they see the care and love you put into yourself. People become attracted to that because it’s an immense strength to have. To refrain from random sex, holding out hope that something better is waiting for you down the line is a strength that a lot of us do not have. You just because the selector instead of being selected.
Just remember in terms of unrequited love, it’s up to them to remember YOU and the impact YOU had on them, never the other way around.
Self Love Summer! 😎❤️🙏🏾🙌🏾
“You just became the selector instead of being selected.” ***
I still jam to break up music if its from a space of moving on. I can’t listen to jar of hearts now because I need more a me myself & I.
I think once the focus is more on you the idea of reminiscing about him feels like a drain. Gotta build on myself basically.