i’m working on my ego.
i’m starting to see that muthafucka has been a hindrance in my life.
it has ruined potentially great relationships.
i can be honest about that.
i was the type of fox to be like…
“If this wolf doesn’t text me back in a day,
I’m taking his number out my phone and banishing him!”
i felt like if someone supposedly was interested,
they should be all over me.
if i’m supposed to be “good looking”,
then i should have wolves making it known that they want me.
even in a public setting.
That’s how “good looking” folks are supposed to be treated,
it even started happening with friends.
i started feeling like if they didn’t feed my fragile ego,
or treat me how i treated them,
then they weren’t good friends.
i’m here to tell you all…
That ain’t it
we need to start removing ourselves from our egos and see the whole forest.
no one is obligated to treat us the way we expect.
just because we do it,
but it’s not the rule.
we forget that others go through problems or busy.
when i’m in a mood,
i don’t particularly want to talk to anyone.
so if this is the case,
if i don’t get the response i’m looking for,
why do i allow it to take control of me in a negative way?
i’ve been asking myself this question because i’m tired of living like that.
What is the truth?
it’s looking at all sides of the forest in an aerial view.
step outside myself for a second.
if someone shows they are interested in you,
have said it and shown thru actions,
then that is their truth.
so give it a day or two,
and if you still don’t hear anything:
How about sending a message and say wassup?
it wouldn’t hurt.
they aren’t a fire breathing dragon.
if they don’t respond to that message in a few days,
then it’s done.
you know where you stand so no need to go in.
that is still their truth.
you can take them out the phone and keep it moving.
you have no more attachments because you’ve let them go.
it’ll be their loss and someone else’s gain.
your ego is not fed and you’re able to go about your business unscathed.
if they don’t have the class to end it,
you don’t have the running shoes to chase it.
we don’t chase ghosts.
once your get your ego in check,
i think that’s when your fucks to gives diminishes too.
it’s such a happier place to live,
lowkey: this is one of the reasons i’d never out someone.
i don’t care how rich or connected you are,
i’m not dealing with being treated like shit ever again.
i won’t have to out you.
i’ll just never speak to you again.