The -X- Factor

C’mere…

I want you to lay back on this couch.
I want you to watch your breathing.
Slowly.
Now close your eyes and clear your mind….

Yup, thats it.

Now let’s go back a few years….

Think back to all the people you use to:

Date
Coulda Dated
Wanted to Date
Shoulda Dated
Wasted Time Dating….

Do you have any regrets?

“This is the number one rule for your set
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
On the, rise to the top, many drop, don’t forget
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets…”- Jay, Reasonable Doubt

Regrets from my end?
Nawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
I had fun and came out un-scathed.

I won’t lie but I have dated a few dudes in my young life.
It wasn’t on no “ho” status but I did entertain quite a few dudes.

Damn I remember……
(licks lips) I also remember…….
But I wanted (bites lip)……………
I wonder what happened to……………….
Did….break up with ol girl……………….

Shittt.

A majority were either:
a “waste of time” or “coulda, shoulda, BUT not gonna”.
It’s life.
I paid my dues and still paying on some titles.
Now I am on a single journey where I know who I am and what I am looking for.
Know the difference between “a good fuck” and “a potential mate“.

Again, it’s life.

In our lifestyle,
we deal with, Lord knows, ALOT of men.
Some only want us for one night stands.
While others actually do care for us and want more than a good fling.
Men are supposedly said to be unfaithful creatures.
We are suppose to be prone to do the most cheating since we are hunters.

I can agree with that, but at what point in your life does that become old?
When in YOUR life did you want to start to settle down?
Or are you still in the middle of the game and having fun?

I know that I still have ALOT more playtime in me.
Funny, I was watching “The Game” and I wanted “that”.
Being with a “Derwin” and giving myself to someone and only that someone.
Discreetly of course.
Even though he cheated and got some ho pregnant,
you can see he was addicted to Girl Melanie.

I want someone to be addicted to me.

Preferably Devin (cough) Thomas.

What about you?

Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

3 thoughts on “The -X- Factor

  1. I believe I have a lot of “playtime” left in me as well…I’m only 22 yrs old. I’m in a serious relationship right now though, and it’s nice to have someone that cares about me. I agree that men are born hunters/cheaters, but it’s possible to suppress those ‘urges’ that we get.

  2. CHILE PEOPLE CAN EXERCISE A GREAT DEAL OF SELF CONTROL SO I DONT BUY A LOT OF THEIR EXCUSES FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL THEMSELVES. ITS JUST A WAY TO JUSTIFY IT SO YOU FEEL BETTER ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING.

    Xs well they are Xs…some are good, some are bad…just like beef jerky…..sometimes u get a good bag …sometimes you dont…..but you aint got to eat it either. So its your choice…dont say just because you bought it, you had to eat it. CHOICES PEOPLE CHOICES!

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