a friend of mine gifted me something out of nowhere the other day.
just randomly and it had me confused.
i definitely appreciated that blessing because i needed it.
so he said:

“Remember when I was broke and you paid something off for me for a year?”

…uh,
no.
i def didn’t remember.
when i do things for people,
i do it and move on with my life.

“See,
you don’t remember because you are a good person.”

so i thought to myself…

“Jamari,
you are a good fuckin’ person.”

if a friend is struggling and i have money,
its a no brainier to help them out.
If God provided me the means and i can help someone,
why wouldn’t i?

Do you need groceries?
Do you have breakfast today?
Do you have a bill that needs to be paid?

do you think if i had tyler perry kind of money,
anyone in my life would be hungry?
in-between blessings?
struggling?
there is something about me that anytime i’ve been good to someone,
and they end up hurting my feelings,
their whole shit turns upside down.

God don’t play about me.

i don’t acknowledge the good in me enough.
my therapist wants me to start doing it more so here we go.