there was a cub i use to know that crossed my mind recently.
star fox knew him too.
when i met him,
he was like 10 or so.
i saw him as a “little brother”,
but he was “different” for his young age.
the things he was doing…
i’ve started to realize “why” he was…
from what i remember,
he was in the foster care system,
but found a home with a nice older vixen at our old church.
as i was told,
one of the older church hyenas was allegedly sucking on his dick.
he was blessed with an alleged big dick.
when he turned 13,
he started messing around with star fox,
who was 2 years older than him at the time.
they were both involved in the youth church stuff than i was.
i forgot how they started messing around,
but i think it was low key flirting and showing star fox his pipe.
that was the “maturity” i was fontin’ about.
i don’t know the actual word for it.
star fox confirmed that he had a really big dick.
there was no sex between them either.
star fox was giving him head and they’d dry hump each other.
he would sleep over star fox’s crib on the weekend,
but they’d mess around heavy when his parents went to sleep.
they tried to fuck,
but according to star fox,
he was still a virgin to anal at the time.
when star fox admitted all this and his background to me,
i was legit shocked.
all those times i was around that cub in my foreground,
he was being turned out something crazy in the background.
when star fox died,
he got my number from star fox’s mother to wish me condolences.
somehow we got on the topic of his past,
cause you know i was gonna ask,
and he admitted everything that happened and more.
he admitted that he:
a) was turned out by older males and vixens as a cub
b) started fuckin’ at a young age and prefers older pussy
c) never fucked a male,
but he only likes getting head
d) didn’t consider himself bi or gay
he told me a story of how star fox mother let him stay over one time,
because he was couch hoppin’ and wyldin‘ in these forests,
and she caught him banging some vixen he snuck in.
he didn’t seem to care anything about it actually.
he spoke proudly of his experiences,
even tho his life is a mess of hood shit and bad decisions.
sex is all he knows and that pretty much defines him now.
matter of fact,
it opened the floodgates for him to try me.
he spent the rest of that phone call trying to set up a head appointment.
“i want that mouth on this dick.
you gonna give it to me…”
we did flirt around on that phone call,
and did have phone sex,
but i felt weird af afterwards.
my common sense kicked in and i deaded that.
he is cute and extremely charismatic,
but i’m so good.
we never spoke again,
but i will never forget that conversation.
some males handle sexual molestation differently than others.
it’s either severe trauma or become hyper sexual.
the ones who don’t see it as a big deal use it too look like “the alpha”.
let’s face it,
males get more props with who and how much they’ve fucked.
i read in charlamagne‘s book,
“black privilege: opportunity comes to those who create it“,
about how he didn’t realize he was sexually molested.
i watched a video recently where he explained it more in detail:
this video made me remember that cub after i saw it.