i am not a hoe.
i.
am.
not.
a.
hoe.
now i have “ho-like” tendencies,
but you already knew this.
if you are going to try and pass me off as a street walker,
i do require 100% of all profits i generate.
it’s cold and daddy needs a new long johns!
room,
board,
and a fancy new wardrobe is also required.
i don’t “do” an episode of “hooker at the point”.
oh…
“bigger and blacker” = your american express.
i’m worth it.
don’t be cheap.
so not attractive.
whew.
i needed to get that off my chest.

okay,
back to the real point of this early morning entry.
lets talk about your heart.
some have forgotten where that is located.
you know,
since the thermostat is all the way down to “sled dog’s tits”.
for those who “feel” the bad shit that happens to them,
it is never fun to have your heart broken.
now…
Continue reading “Broken Hearts Leave Stains (Try Wearing Red)” →

“Lol Jamari you sound like you just broke up with your boyfriend.
Don’t have that pineapple turning you into a long Adele video.” – one of my fav foxholers in an email

i think what hurt my feelings was treating me like i didn’t exist.
that is the part that stings the most.
i’ll tell you all because we are having “fox talk” right now.
its’ done tho.
work wolf and i are not friends anymore.
after all this childish cold shoulder bs,
i came to a decision that this has reached it’s expiration date.
for some,
i’m sure they thought that a while ago.
for me,
i wanted to hang on because i was so sure.
“so sure” i’d end up getting hurt…
Continue reading “An Ended Friendship On Ice” →

so we’re here again.
not speaking.
suprise fuckin’ surprise.
another pointless fall out between us.
what is this?
like the seventh?
eighth?
i lost count.
of course,
this isn’t my fault.
well a little of it is.
i can be a grown up and admit,
but it’s definitely not that serious for…
Continue reading “Fallin’ Out (Again)” →

things between work wolf and i are calm.
well,
right now.
no more fighting or “not speaking”.
i’ve brought my “fuck shit” all the way down.
if he does something i don’t agree with,
i just let it go.
he comes over my crib a lot more.
he also more open than before.
i’m enjoying his company.
i don’t know why i feel so insecure about him tho.
even as my role of “friend”,
or “its complicated”,
i still feel uneasy within myself.
it’s funny…
Continue reading “All is Well In The Work Wolf Forest (For Him, Anyway)” →

i have been holding a lot in when it came to work wolf.
the feeling of not being able to share it had me emotionally sick.
i felt like i as crying out for help,
needing someone to listen to me.
i got a lot of emails asking about work wolf tho.
it was crazy the amount of people felt comforted with my saga.
they were also dealing with their own “work wolves”.
it wasn’t until i read this comment from zen buddha…
Continue reading “mental homework: (23)” →

thoughts at 3am.
my favorite.
i love when i’m laying in bed and have this urge to cum to the foxhole.
it means i was really in my head about something.
i had to get this off tonight.
it couldn’t wait until morning.
i said i wouldn’t mention “work wolf” again,
but i’ll say this…
Continue reading “For Anyone With A “Work Wolf” Saga” →