FOXMAIL

Jamari:

I’m going on year two in the ATL and I have fallen hard for a stripper. He does his work and comes homes to me but since he is bi-sexual, I feel like I’m competing with the foxes and hyenas in order to have his attention.

He has goals and ambitions and wants me included with them but I can’t shake all the females (or its more of him) that can’t shake them off with the texts and meeting them at the club esp. when foxes, wolves, and hyenas bring their “female” foxes.

I have fallen hard and we got so much in common but I want him all to myself and not share with anyone (Foxes or wolves included).  Any advice?

MY ANSWER…

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i had some basic jackal thinking today…

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choices.
we all have choices in life.
in the concrete forest,
you get the luxury of variety.
you can choose between what you want for breakfast,
what type of transportation to get where you are going,
or what things you choose to associate yourself with.
that’s the beauty of life in general.
when it comes to wolves,
i find that some of us don’t apply that rule.
we meet one wolf,
in one great situation,
and hold onto that hope he will be the one.
what we don’t realize is he met you,
in one great situation,
and he has twenty others in rotation for “the one”.
don’t think for a second when he isn’t talking to you that he is alone.
so when it comes to dating…

The more more choices; the better?

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so the text conversation took an interesting turn that night.
i was in the middle of watching monster’s university when sex the topic was.
well not how you would think:

“i won’t even fuck a bitch if a nigga in there.
don’t even think a bitch eatin my ass either.”

“but you would let her give you the sloppiest of throat?”

“yeah thats normal.
that other shit i aint with it.
if other niggas are thats on them.”

“wow sounds boring.”

i was starting to think my straight wolf was a prude.
or am i just a whore?
how did this all start, you ask?
well lets a trip back real quick.
it all started when i mentioned what my niece was telling me…
and this is NSFW,
18^,
and not for the straights...
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coming from a lady gaga fan?
i laugh.
secretly the ones every gay wants to conquer a straight wolf.
you can act like you don’t.
“no i don’t even look at them.”
“why do gays look at them?”
blah blah muhfuck blah.
when you see that fine straight wolf on the train,
your class,
or even at work and he makes you feel something deep inside…
the answer already lies in the blood.
many of these straight wolves are very homophobic.
it could come from many issues.
as much as they try to avoid the queens out there,
they can’t avoid “my homeboy i trust with my life who happens to be dl”.
there are many masculine wolves out there who like dick.
once they find out their brother or best friend is gay,
they may change their tune.
so last night i was texting a straight friend from an old job…

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FOXMAIL

Hey Jamari. Hope all is well. I figure I try this receiving advice thing out. You always have something insightful to say. Would like to get you opinion on this. So here goes:

How did I Turn into the enemy?

I’m a wolf. D.L or discreet wolf if you give me a label. In plain terms a bisexual male. After conversing with a very close friend, something unsettling came up. My friend is an openly homosexual male. Having one of our ever so often “real” conversations he called me “the enemy”, a “guys guy”. My look of confusion must have invoked a explanation. He explain to me that I am the guy that “wants my cake and eat it too”. My friend explained I say I want commitment but do not really want it, end up in different beds “looking” for it and breaks hearts while I look for someone I know is a “dream”. I knew his statement came from a honest place so I did not take offense. This is honestly a very close friend. One of the very few who know the lifestyle I live. I just laughed it off. I denied his accusation  and we moved on but it caused me to really reflect.

Am I now the enemy?

I remember when I decided I was going to be honestly with myself at 21 yrs old . I was bisexual and no matter how much I denied it would not not go away.  It was not just a phase.  And suppressing it was making the urges stronger and me go silently insane. So I decided I owe myself the chance. I told myself that “I rather have one person of substance than many of no value” living this lifestyle change. I wanted one fox or hybrid and just enjoy it, give my best. I said I would not have pointless sex or many partners. I would be as honest with them (as I can be). Not play games. Just give it my all and would not settle. I will just concentrate on that one . I will be in search for that one.

Needless to say I have drifted from my goal. My friend’s statement  made me realize something I saw but tried to deny. I’m 23 at the moment and still “in search”.  I have done everything I did not want to do. I settled, body count on the raise, pointless sex, meaningless interactions, “talking” to more than one, being honest but withholding information (still lying),  playing the game before I get played and now unsure if I want “that one”.

How did this happen?
How did I become the dudes that did me wrong in this process?
The irony.
Am I the only one this happen to?
Is there any turning back?

MY ANSWER…

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