therapy

laying in the dark, listening to r&b, is therapy

r&b creates magic within me.
it can make me happy,
emotional,
horny,
or heal my broken heart.
when my soul is aching,
a good r&b mix-tape can do just that.
i’ve been feeling really out of it lately,
but my soul urged me to do something i haven’t done in a while…

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i need to do me better (two chairs; one fox)

i just had something happen in therapy that i have to share.
before he called,
i was filled with anxiety and doubt.
there were so many things going on in my mind.
after the call,
i feel lighter and more relieved.
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put a leash on your inner demons and feed them something different

Graphic – Yuri Shwedoff

“Demons are like obedient dogs; they come when they are called.” – Rémy de Gourmont

i’m learning to train my inner demons to be more obedient.
so i learned something valuable in therapy today.
i wanted to share it with the foxhole.
someone else needed to hear it…

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my first day of therapy.

so i had my first therapy appointment just now.
wow.

Am I supposed to feel this way?

well,
let me explain…

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i did it.

so i did it.
yup.
i finally have done it.
it took a while,
but i been in serious need…

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In Therapy To Remove That Little Bit of Gay To Be 100% Straight

have you ever said to yourself:

“i don’t want to be gay anymore”

…and really mean it?
there is no shame in admitting it.
we are all family in here.
i’m sure i have said it a couple times.
well it’s crazy when you interact with different foxholers,
they have many interesting ideas for their gay or bi lives.
some are truly not happy and would do anything to be fully straight.
again,
there is no shame in that.
the life is not for everyone.
well i have been speaking to a foxholer who has been going to conversion therapy.
with his permission,
i asked if i could post our conversation for the foxhole.
as usual,
he will remain anonymous.
i have a feeling some may relate to this conversation…