decisions.
the path either goes:

left
right
straight
in a circle

whatever you choose will either get you to your destination:

faster
slower
back to where you started
not at all

it just takes one decision to change your life forever.
it’s valentine’s day and i have a lot of shit on my mind.
not on some “i need love” shit.
i’m good.
something else…
Continue reading “Left, Right, The Side, Down The Middle, or The Back Door” →

one of my biggest downfalls,
as i’ve shared a couple times,
is i’ve cared too much.
it came from a place of “lack”.
i would look at others,
and then at my own life,
and see i didn’t “fit in”.
it caused me to ask myself and others countless times:

“Am I doing something wrong?”

everyone looked at me like i was living a good life.
i was too busy investing energy in randoms and strangers to see it…
Continue reading ““Loss” and “Lack” Makes You Care Too Much” →

i was laying in bed just now,
enjoying every inch of my lazy,
when i saw i had 4 texts on my computer.
i had my phone on my favorite mode:

DO NOT DISTURB

…so i didn’t hear it.
when i looked,
it was the pretty vixen.

“jamari i need to talk to you”
“i have horrible news”
“i know you can relate with this”
“please text me soon”

so i did…
Continue reading “Bad News on Christmas Eve” →

do you ever know when it’s time to move on?
for most of us,
it depends on how far we hit rock bottom.
once you see how far you have fallen,
that’s when you know it’s time to move on.
the rest either:

know from jump and be out
  don’t know and have settled to being okay with what’s given

i tend to try and stick it out until it’s the end.
i’m one of “them”.
i don’t know why,
but it has come to this.

that’s the problem

so i was talking to the pretty vixen this morning.
she low-key told me about myself…

Continue reading “It’s Time To Move On” →

she was cute.
snow bunny.
she wanted to know all about my work background.
i told her enthusiastically everything about me.
she liked everything she saw on paper.
i just didn’t really feel the “connection” with her.
bad enough the receptionist was dry as well.
she told me she wanted her colleagues to meet me after.
i waited for 10 minutes and she comes back…
Continue reading “So Let Me Tell You About My Day…” →

today was pretty interesting.
it left me wondering…

Has God finally cut me a break?

so it started this morning…
Continue reading “Hey! Its Sparkly Fox!” →