i didn’t sleep well last night.
my night involved the most intense nightmares.
i can’t even font you what they were about but i felt fear.
there were times i kept waking up out of my sleep.
that wasn’t the part tho.
so rewind back to earlier last night…

i’m very lenient on males who realize they’re attracted to other males,
unlike others.
don’t get me wrong,
some shit makes my head spin around in disgust,
but other things i don’t attack as fast as others.
i’ve been there as being someone who was attracted to other males,
but terrified in allowing myself to feel those feelings.

What will my family think?
What will the people in Barbados think?
What will people that are around me think?
Will I be shunned and ostracized?

no matter the age,
it can be a culture shock and huge life adjustment especially with all the “rules” within this life.
 it’s very scary,
but this is one thing i won’t tolerate…

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i’m proud of america (for once).
i haven’t said/fonted that in a while.
lil nas x came out of the closet and there was no push back.
he is still selling and i enjoy him on twitter.
he spoke to “time magazine” about how scared he was to come out.
a foxholer sent me what he he had to say via “msn“…
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one thing that use to bother me was people thinking i was gay.
the fear stemmed from my parents being so judgmental.
i’ve fonted about it before.
they raised me to be “softer” and then hated how i came out.
one thing i had to realize tho…
when you put so much emphasis on not looking/acting gay,
you actually end up looking/acting gay.
i think that’s the dilemma shawn mendes is facing.
in the latest “rolling stone”,
where he happens to grace the cover…

he spoke about his fears of people thinking he is gay.
something many of us can relate with.
this is what he said via “usa today”…
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does usher have a stan base?
you know,
like the hive?
the navy?
lambs?
whatever britney calls hers?
well “the burners”…
“confessional cartel”?
whatever…
…has got quantasia sharpton scared af.
this is what she put on her facebook via baller alert…
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she looks harmless,
right?
wrong.
so naomi campbell is the most beautiful and successful black model vixen.
she is a pioneer amogst black supermodels who paved the way for others.
well how can she strike fear in the hearts of others?
well ask tyra banks,
who happens to be another successful black model vixen.
tyra admits she is still “scared” of naomi campbell.
this is what she told rolling out magazine…
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