i am a worker.
i work very hard to try and get from point a to b…
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in this life,
we have three options:

find a potential
find a potential for right now
die alone

added: dressing nice and never trying to catch any diseases.
we encounter many wolves,
foxes,
and hybrids.
some out.
some “straight”.
some curious.
its like we spend our days putting our lives to the side for “someone”.
it can leave many of us emotionally drained,
exhausted,
and not feeling worth anything.
in looking back in my life,
i can see i have always chased wolves.
i wanted this big bad wolf to be the cure of what i’m lacking within.
many times,
in the feelings of frustration and loneliness,
i have felt half crazy.
asking myself what the hell am i even doing this for?
and will i be alone for the rest of my life?
i can see why many of “us” either go insane,
become unapologetic thots,
or go “straight” and live a lie for companionship.
i had to wonder…

Can this life make you crazy?…

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you aren’t ready for love.
i’m not either.
not the way some of us carrying on.
myself included.
we have these fantasies of our perfect “potentials and prototypes”.
i post about them ever so often.
he looks like what we want to feel like on the inside.
we think because is so handsome,
and that his bawdy is together,
that he will the key to activating what we are missing inside.
hell a majority of them are worse off mentally and emotionally than us.
well i had a lot of thoughts about it last night.
i had to wonder if i haven’t found a wolf because i’m not ready for one?
lets say i got that crush from my job,
or anyone of the crushes from my past,
and he fucked me completely stupid and never called me again,
would i REALLY be able to handle that?
probably not.
not where i am right now in life.
have i been looking for someone to love me,
to see the beauty in me,
rather than me learning to truly love myself?
i had to wonder…

Can a “potential” teach you how to love yourself?

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“i don’t know what i want.”

there i said it.
i thought i knew,
but i have no idea.
i know i want to be happy.
that is always number 1.

what is happiness to jamari fox tho?…
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word.

they say in the bible:

“to much is given,
much is tested…”

well i think thats in the bible.
either way i had a thought tonight while i lay on the couch.
the thought was has anyone gotten to where they needed to be,
 into the relationship of their dreams,
or even just lived an overall better life,
by just being tested to all extremes?
i had to wonder…

Do we really achieve greatness after great tests?

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