you ever peeped those people who were doing nothing and looked like they were going nowhere?
they were stagnant and literally spent their days on the couch or playing video games.
suddenly,
a shift happened,
and that “stagnant” life is in the rear view mirror.

i think some people end up thriving after being stagnant tbh.
i was always taught that if i wasn’t doing something,
if i wasn’t moving like everyone else,
that i was a failure at life.
i see it with a lot of people tbh.

if they aren’t on,
they feel off.

…but i’ve learned a lesson time and time again,
especially right now in my life…

“It’s not my fault”.

that is what i said after a conversation with my cousin today.
healing can come in many ways unexpectedly.
sometimes,
we need to go back and really research our family tree.
we will find out what happened to us and how it started.
after hearing about how trauma started in my family,
i felt like i found a key and opened the doors to narnia in my attic.
many of my family members have one thing in common…

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