i am the problem maker.

that’s not exactly the most positive thing to say.
every so often,
i’m able to see the error in my ways and call myself out.
growth,
maybe?
i don’t know.
i’ve noticed how i can be on the straight and narrow.
things could be going well and i’m on top of the mountain.
onward march!
the next,
something will happen,
and i’ll be knocked off and down on my knees in the valley.
a dark one where traps are set everywhere.
the traps the enemy has set to feel worse about myself.

Why is this?…

Continue reading “Falling Into The Traps I’ve Set (For Myself)” →

i need to learn to shut off my emotions…
Continue reading “My Off Switch is Located Under My Fox Tail” →

sadness.
insecurity.
over-thinking.
fear.
it all concocts the recipe of “fuck shit” in our lives.
you try to achieve your goals,
but one (if not all of those things) put a full stop to it.
its like a swipe password pattern almost.

you don’t feel happy.
swipe left and it leads to seeing the insecurities in your life.
swipe up and it makes you question everything you do.
when you swipe down,
it makes you want to stay stagnant,
because well,
you don’t feel good enough.

its all the plot to keep you where you are.
bad enough,
social media and these lying ass hoes don’t make it any better.
i couldn’t stop but wonder…

How do you put an end to mental and emotional “fuck shit”?…
Continue reading “The New Episodes of “The Mind Is Right” (Start Date When?)” →

last night was an emotional one.
the first time i ever showed emotions in front of work wolf.
i got in at like 12:30am and went straight to bed.
it wasn’t like i didn’t have a ton of thoughts.
so last night,
work wolf and i had another outing and well…
(this is going to a long one)
Continue reading “Dinner, Movies, and Emotions With The Work Wolf” →

mercury retrograde.
a time in life when things start to get confusing.
when mercury passes earth,
it slows down and spins backwards in retrograde.
in astrology,
mercury rules communication.
so during the three weeks this bs happens,
things in your life can get weird.
things won’t work,
they say not to start anything new,
and situations will get confusing.
my life has been absolutely confusing.
ever since may 18th,
and the last one earlier this year,
life has been one hell of a ride.
ima call it “chaos” because it was just that….
Continue reading “Spinning Out of Control (Mercury Retrograde)” →

i will forever love aggressive wolves.
there is nothing sexier.
ain’t nothing that pisses me off more than a bitch ass pineapple.
i seem to attract those types,
which makes me wonder what is wrong with me?
katt williams said something that always stuck with me…
Continue reading “Emotional Nakedness” →