when we are cubs,
we usually have one main emotion that pushes us.
joy is what made us bright eyed and bushy tailed to be alive.
we see the world as one big adventure.
with the help of our parents,
we learn how to use joy to experience love.
as we grow however,
and shit happens throughout our lives,
we get introduced to the different emotions within us…
i have always been an open book when it came to my emotions.
i know it’s not the “manly” thing to do,
but i’d rather others know what’s bothering me than bottling it up.
with that being said,
i often asked myself:
Are males supposed to be emotional?
it’s like we’re supposed to lie in order to be considered a “man”.
the almighty male!
the one who bangs a lot of ho
les and wears designer clothes!
hear us roar!
well that won’t be me.
judging from how the foxhole has been my “emotional journey” since ’09,
i guess many relate in some way or another.
thank you to those who continue not to judge me since then.
i saw a quote from viola davis the other day that represents me.
as you know,
viola is one of my favorite actresses.
this is a quick quote on what she told essence via the root…
Continue reading “It’s Sexy To Be A Hole Banging, Emotionally Pit less, Money Loving Volcano”
i am the problem maker.
that’s not exactly the most positive thing to say.
every so often,
i’m able to see the error in my ways and call myself out.
i don’t know.
i’ve noticed how i can be on the straight and narrow.
things could be going well and i’m on top of the mountain.
something will happen,
and i’ll be knocked off and down on my knees in the valley.
a dark one where traps are set everywhere.
the traps the enemy has set to feel worse about myself.
Why is this?…
i need to learn to shut off my emotions…
Continue reading “My Off Switch is Located Under My Fox Tail”
it all concocts the recipe of “fuck shit” in our lives.
you try to achieve your goals,
but one (if not all of those things) put a full stop to it.
its like a swipe password pattern almost.
you don’t feel happy.
swipe left and it leads to seeing the insecurities in your life.
swipe up and it makes you question everything you do.
when you swipe down,
it makes you want to stay stagnant,
you don’t feel good enough.
its all the plot to keep you where you are.
social media and these lying ass hoes don’t make it any better.
i couldn’t stop but wonder…