growing up,
my grandmother was one of the important figures in my life.
when my mother was running wild in the forests of barbados,
it was my grandmother who made the sacrifice to take care of me as a baby.
i stayed at her spot during the week and saw my mother on weekends.
although her methods of parenting were very abusive…

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my reality is different from some of my family members it seems.
i’m starting to realize that.
even though i love my grandmother,
it is no secret that she was abusive to us.
i think many caribbean people faced a shit ton of abuse.
the last conversation i had with my father made me realize something…

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we all weren’t blessed in life to pick our parents.
if so,
i would have picked a father who isn’t a liar and coward.
caribbean fathers have a tendency to be the worst.
my father and i have had a very distant relationship over the years,
even when i was a kid in barbados.
it was all due to the issues between my grandmother and him.
he was only used to buy me school uniforms and haircuts.
i’ll never forget going out with him as a kid and one of his friends saying how “soft” i looked.
deep down inside,
my father knew that i would be gay but didn’t want to admit it at the time.
when we had an honest conversation a few years ago,
i revealed my sexuality to him and he claimed he already knew.
he let me know that i was his son and that he would accept me.
tonight,
things took a different turn during a phone call we had…

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as much as i post cut up bawdies,
with banging biceps and crotch adjusting abs,
i can always rock with a wolf with a thick bawdy.
i believe we in the foxhole love our fantasies,
but we love our realities as of well.

Most males ain’t built Ford tough

drake is cute to me.
i don’t care what anyone says,
but that beard really helped enhanced his looks.
he is currently at my home island of bim (barbados) where he had a beach day…
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so i’m gonna be very transparent with the foxhole.
i’ve been very open on my latest podcasts,
but i never wrote too much about my growing up.
it’s time to let you deeper inside me.
cum on…

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when i make it,
and in my entire bag,
i am going to make sure i give back to my island like rihanna does.
one thing i love about her is she never forgets about her people.
this is what she did for barbados in regards to the rona...

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