i been thinking that if everything that has happened these last 3 years,
even if i thought it was so negative,
was actually part of God’s plan?

this time last year of june 2025,
in about a month,
i was gonna come where i am now for a BBQ.
i didn’t want to come but something urged me to go.
when i left here that night to go back to new yawk,
i have on video telling my friend i was gonna live here.

“i don’t know how,
but i’m going to live here.”

and even though this transition wasn’t ‘a walk in the park…

its so heavy in my life rn,
i had to make a playlist of whitney’s gospel tracks and spiritual songs.

truly.
this year has been…

i faced so many disappointments,
especially with things and people i thought i knew.
i can’t even trust when i’m on solid ground anymore.
shit that don’t even make sense either.
just shit going wrong because the devil wants to fuck with me.
i told a friend the other day:

“if this was 2015,
i think i would have broken from all the weight.”

going further back,
i always use to say 2003 was one of the toughest years of my life.
2025 year has cracked me open to force me to pick up the pieces.
this year has broke me open and all the pieces…

there is no denying that many of the new artists today are missing something.
is it charisma?
talent?
superstardom?
many of these folks just don’t have “it“.
so when they perform at award shows,
we are often left yawning.
the VMAs are a shell of it’s former self now.
why?
there are no:

we don’t have any real superstars anymore besides the current millennial acts.
i saw this performance from “the new britney“,
aka tate mccrae,
at the VMAS and i was like…

I don’t know if I was dreaming or what,
but I think I watched a documentary that a Foxholer suggested to me about black dandies.
For the life of me,
I cannot remember the name but it was about African dandies who live in a poor town or something.

anyhoo,
i really enjoyed many of the looks at the met gala this year.
(some of) the fashions gave drama and decadence.
you can tell who did their homework.
the theme this year was about black dandyism and had a 98% black committee.
black dandyism was used as a political statement.
learning pharrell had lisa from BLACKPINK wear rosa parks on her crotch:

BLACKPINK’s Lisa’s Met Gala Outfit Faces Backlash Over Underwear Featuring Rosa Parks https://t.co/llTtSptLbD #MetGala #LisaXMetGala2025 #Lisa pic.twitter.com/lH6FbmQTQC

— ktotheworld (@ktotheworld11) May 6, 2025

that was not the tribute he thought it was.
it was tone deaf at best; performance art at worst.
i still don’t know what the hell he had sabrina carpenter wearing:

it giving ringmaster at the circus.
i don’t even want to get into that symbolism with a white vixen.
tiktok had thoughts and i watched a video that put things into perspective…

“Did you see how Doechii was yelling at her team last night?”

nope and thank God i didn’t.
a nasty attitude will turn me off in a heartbeat.
so i randomly stumbled upon it today and:

yikes.
so this outfit…

Cade Maddox is one of the few white wolves in adult entertainment that gets me off on sight.

nick bayne is coming up next on the list.
as you know,
i love a thick bawdy with big legs and a round tail.
cade maddox is going through an interesting phase in his career.
the following tho with him at the 2025 gayvn awards…