“I just fade into the abyss with people.”
that was the pretty vixen telling me how she doesn’t do confrontation.
i like to pull folks to the side so we can be on the same page.
for my mental health,
i always like to squash issues so i don’t take any ghosts with me.
i know that isn’t always possible but if i have to move on,
at least we had a conversation before we got to that point.
i had to wonder tho…
Is confrontation always a good thing?
i sent three texts to three people in my life…
all three of them did something that bothered me/has been bothering me.
2 responded; 1 didn’t.
the first two acknowledged where they went wrong with me.
they apologized and we moved forward.
the last one that i really wanted to speak to didn’t send a reply back.
I guess I know where we stand.
it’s fucked up when you think you know someone,
but you see you didn’t mean as much to them as you thought.
that’s one of my biggest issues.
i always stay optimistic with most people,
but i’m always left disappointed.
the pretty vixen,
who tends to be more logical than emotional,
sees people for who they are and sends them on their way when they violate.
it makes me feel like i’m weak or something.
i should know better but i do the same dumb shit.
Is something wrong with me?
lowkey: outside of my friends,
i wish people would fight for me like they do others.