you ever met a dude that you were SURE wanted you,
but his social media said otherwise?
those mystery males who leave you wondering where their sexuality lies.
you thought he was flirting with you in real life,
but his timeline reveals he has been in relationships with vixens before?
Do you ever feel stupid af?
i woke up today with the sudden urge to hit the alligator pit.
my spirit wanted answers about something.
we might need to make a new phrase in the foxhole…
Alligator pit (n) – a place that you know will hurt you feelings and bite you in the ass.
It is often a place where we can learn the truth or get clarity on a situation/a dude/someone.
we have all found ourselves in an alligator pit at one time or another.
it has helped us find out someone hated us,
or might have even saved our ass.
i found myself being inquisitive.
my spirit wanted me to go down one of my interests twitter timelines.
well i saw that he has been in relationships with vixens,
one of which was a few years ago.
they use to flirt and talk shit to each other on social media.
she was not shy that she wanted to be fucked on occasion.
that lowkey turned me on a little bit.
their communication was kinda childish,
but they were indeed claiming each other.
now i know that doesn’t mean anything in this life,
Why did it make me feel like an idiot?
all that lowkey flirting and his actions between us might have been a dub.
i started to question that maybe i was wrong.
maybe i misconstrued what was happening,
but i don’t feel like so.
now i’ll admit:
When I see a male flirting with vixens,
or has been in relationships with them,
I tend to rule him as “straight”.
many foxholers have been in relations with vixens or some even still bang some.
some of you have told me.
i’m always expecting to be wrong when it comes to males being interested in me.
that might be my doubt from past situations or not seeing my worth.
i love beating myself up,
snooping around the alligator pit is helpful because you can learn the truth.
it isn’t helpful if you can’t handle the truth OR what you want to be truth.
even though i got a nice bite in my ass (one i might have given myself)…
I still want more.
something is wrong with me.
lowkey: has any of the foxholers ever had an experience with a male,
it looked like he had girlfriends in the past (or present),
but he was really into you?
is that even a thing?