i’m getting on my knees tonight.
my boss and liar liar are not in.
when i asked god for a good week ahead,
he definitely came through with this good start.
so i called star fox’s mother to see how she was doing.
i like to check in on her from time to time.
we have gotten pretty closer as the year went on.
we got into a nice convo about the subject:

“giving god complete control of our life”

a subject and way of life i’m not good at.
last week,
i saw a quote from rihanna in the new harper’s bazaar.
it stuck with me.
the question the interviewer asked her was about her being fearless.
she said:

“R: I think I’m like most people—we fear the unknown and the things that have yet to come to pass, which are the very things that don’t deserve to be feared. When you give God complete control, it’s very hard not to be fearless.”

i found that answer so interesting.
i admire her for her attitude.
i’m sure she has issues,
but as you can tell,
she barely ever has fucks to give.
so that lead into the discussion today.
she gave me a link and told me only when i’m ready to say this prayer.
its the “prayer of surrendering”.
i’m ready to do it tonight before bed,
but i wanted to share it with the foxhole who is also ready.
so whenever you are ready to give up control,
this is what you need to say…

 Loving Father,

I surrender to You today with all my heart and soul.  Please come into my heart in a deeper way.  I say “Yes” to You today.  I open all the secret places in my heart to you and say, “Come on in.”  Jesus, You are Lord of my whole life.  I believe in You and receive You as my Lord and Savior.  I hold nothing back.  Holy Spirit, bring me deeper conversion to the person of Jesus Christ.  I surrender all to you: my health, my family, my resources, occupation, skills, relationships, time management, successes and failures.  I release it, and let it go.  I surrender my understanding of how things out to be; my choices and my will.  I surrender to You the promises I have kept and the promises I have failed to keep.  I surrender my weaknesses and strengths to You.  I surrender my emotions, my fears, my insecurities, my everything.  I surrender _____________, ______________________, _______________________, _____________________. (Continue to surrender other areas as the Holy Spirit reveals them to you).  Lord, I surrender my entire life to You, the past, the present and the future.  In sickness and in health, in life and in death, I belong to You.

once you do that,
there is no more looking back.
only forward.
so any issues or problems you have,
you know god is already in control.
you will be tested,
but its only to see if you are being faithful.
i am ready to just let him deal with everything that is bothering me.
i’m tired of trying to solve issues and making a mess of things.
leaving me the one to have to deal with the clean up.
i want to go with the flow and stay there.
i hope this helps someone out there.

rihanna quote taken: harpers bazaar | prayer