i have these visions sometimes.
i could be listening to a certain song,
in the middle of meditating,
or the way the sun beams through my curtains.
its that moment when everything is completely still.
its when this unexplainable feeling will wash over me.
it feels me feel so good.
it can last from 5 minutes to 15.
in those moments is when i imagine what would make me most happiest.
i often wonder if it’s a preview for the future?
a foreshadow of whats to come in my life?
well last night…
i was simply just sitting on my couch.
i had three candles burning.
i love white candles.
i had my laptop playing:
i love this album.
love love love love LOVE this album.
you want peace then that is where its at.
her first album helps me to meditate.
last night i wasn’t meditating tho.
and drinking some hot chamomile tea.
2 cough drops inside.
^whatever that long thing is in that cup,
i need to get it.
anyway a certain song from the album came on and i got lost in this vision.
one I’ve had when both my parents were alive.
we were all supposed to move out of new yawk.
a year before my father passed was when they sat me down.
i was ready!
from that point on is when the visions would start.
it looked like i lived in the suburbs.
i could see trees.
the air smelled crisp.
i could see me in front of a desktop computer.
typing and smiling.
there were no lights on in the room except the computer screen.
in the background i could see a city all lit up.
the light and energy was bouncing off the buildings.
it was absolutely beautiful.
it reminded me of the new yawk skyline,
but wherever it was,
it would serve as the background to my new home.
i’m a city fox who dreams of suburban life.
alas things didn’t work out that way for me,
and i definitely can’t see anything from my bedroom window,
but i always held onto how i would feel if that came true.
maybe this is the law of attraction?
but i’m still holding on to find out…