2 weeks.
i had so much going on that i couldn’t focus on the book.
no excuses.
i still read the chapter in “no more mr. nice guy” tho.
so this one was a pretty short.
it was about my favorite subject:
SEX
one that i love to talk about,
but will admit,
on a hiatus from.
so these are my “break free activity answers”.
disclaimer:
NSFW
18^
“NOT FOR STRAIGHT EYES”
we are talking sex on a sunday morning.
most of the content will be pretty graphic.
you been warned…
my love life is doa.
i’m also not getting “good sex”.
i’m not really looking right now,
but if the opportunity presented itself,
i wouldn’t turn it down.
*****
- A – ish
2. A – if anyone asked,
i wouldn’t deny it. 3. A – i’m pretty open about sex.
talking about sex is not scary to me.
i’ll let animals i know personally,
or even the foxhole,
in on how good i’m getting banged. ****
my earliest sexual history:
i started touching myself a a very early age.
i’ve always been turned on by random shit.
in this order:
feet
someone being tied up
titties
dude’s bunz and how it looked as they were fuckin’
rough sex
muscles
3somes
watching snow wolves/bunnies getting their brains fucked out by black wolves
anything justin slayer (he turns me completely on)
wolves getting their groceries eaten/being turnt out
amateur porn
foxes/vixens with an extremely fat tail gettin’ fucked good
this doctor making me get naked and touching me
i was a cub and it made me uncomfortable
my family were intense strict christians.
they made sex scary.
at a young age,
they had me feeling like i would go to hell if i had sex.
they wanted me to talk to vixens,
but still instilled this fear of fucking.
i was also getting told in the background that being gay was a sin.
it was a mess.
i would sneak and watch love scenes in movies.
i didn’t start getting into gay porn until my early twenties.
when they would leave,
i would go watch movies that had sex scenes to get off too.
there this one that use to get me off heavy.
it was with wesley snipes in a movie,
“mo better blues”.
he was on top of this vixen,
fucking her,
but the way his ass looked inbetween the sheets:
this was the scene,
but this is the ending of it.
these scenes are when i knew i was starting to really like wolves.
it also didn’t help lookin’ at wolves in gym.
dry humping my neighbor,
who was a vixen,
at her crib while playing “house”.
she liked me to be “her husband” when we played together.
i lost my virginity to a wolf on my aunt’s bed.
i had no fucks to give that day.
she was nasty to me so i looked at it as payback.
ways i acted out sexually:
phone sex
porn
fetishes
(sexy wolves fuckin’ transexuals
really cocky masculine hybrids getting topped
missionary position so i can see the his wolf tail moving/contracting
if i see anyone grab a wolf’s ass in a flick
sexy wolves with nice bawdies being dominant
basic s&m)
dark side:
i’ve had a rape fantasy before
i like to watch other animals fuckin in front of me/or listen in
*****
i want to cut down my porn watching/collecting.
i have thousands of flicks to get off to on a rainy day.
i want to stop doing that so much.
*****
that is why i only fuck wolves i’m attracted to.
i can’t just fuck someone because i’m horny.
there has to be “something” about you that turns me on.
i don’t fantasize about anything other than the wolf and me.
i am usually in the moment with him,
which makes the sex so intense with me.
****
yeah…
no problems there.
****
doing this now sans partner.
i’m working on myself and my career.
i think i’ll try a one day a week “jack off” moratorium.
instead of doing it so much,
i will lower my intake of porn for one day out the week.
****
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well i hope so.
i’ll be a force to be reckoned with.
i’m not ashamed of any of this.
is that weird?
anyway…
see you next week!
That last sex gif. Made me touch myself 😒 who iz tht b.t.w
Romance fucking Brklyn Kidd (breeditraw I think)
Breaking Free Activity #36
How’s your love life? Are you ready to start getting good sex?
—– My love life is nonexistent, and I’m always ready for good sex.
Breaking Free: Pop Quiz
Most Nice Guys initially deny having any shame and fear about sex. Take the following quiz to see
if you are in denial about your own sexual shame and fear.
1. Think back to your first sexual experience. Was it:
B. Hidden, rushed, guilt-ridden, or in a less than ideal situation?
— I had no idea it was going to happen and i was drunk as hell, it happened with a straight wolf friend and after like a fool I caught feelings)
2. When it comes to your sexual experiences, thoughts, or impulses:
A. You are comfortable revealing everything about yourself to your partner.
—-Nothing to hide there
Find a safe place to talk about the following issues:
Your sexual history :
Earliest sexual memory – feeling a girl up in first grade, getting hunched by a boy in 2nd
childhood experiences – I stared noticing my attraction to boys early like 1st grade but I knew it wasn’t right (at least back then)
I got fingered at age 11 by the babysitters son who was like 3 years older while we were play fighting. I remembered being shocked but liking it.
adult sexual history – After my first time i didn’t have sex for awhile, it wasn’t easy to get laid like my female friends could. up until a year ago I would go no hook up apps to do it. I would meet up with a wolf at HIS place do the do and get gone. We would lose contact after and I would be settled until I got super horny again. I haven’t had intercourse for 2 years but I’ve done other stuff.
Ways in which you have acted out sexually : I watch of porn like at least one or twice a day
Your dark side : not comfortable sharing that here (sorry don’t want to be judged)
Breaking Free Activity #38
Set aside a time to practice healthy masturbation. Choose a comfortable place where you will be
undisturbed. Practice by looking at yourself and touching yourself without using pornography or
fantasy. Pay attention to how it feels to experience your sexuality without any goals or agendas
(such as having an orgasm). Also observe any tendency to distract yourself from what you are
experiencing (going into fantasy, becoming goal-oriented, having distracting thoughts, loss of
physical sensation). Just observe these experiences and use them as information about your shame
and fear.
——– Already got it
Breaking Free Activity #39
Consider going on a sexual moratorium. Consciously refrain from sex for a predetermined period
of time. No matter what your sexual situation is, it can be a powerful learning experience. Most
guys initially resist the idea, but once they make the decision to do it, they find it to be a very
positive experience. A sexual moratorium can have many benefits:
—–I have tried not jacking before when J suggested it on here and couldn’t do it, will see what I can do tho.
Go cold turkey. No jerking off for 30 days
^omg that sounds scary LOL!
^i think i’m up for that challenge tho.
starting today or tomorrow?
Start today. It’s about developING a strong mind and inner spirit. Not depriving yourself of satisfaction. Find other things to do to satisfy you…not eating..
^oh god…
okay.
starting right now then.
damn…
30 days…
june 8th is when i’ll do it again.
😳🎈