one of my biggest fears is to live through another 9/11 type of situation.
every time i see a plane flying in the sky,
i have this fear i’m going to see something terrifying.
the original broke us and changed the way we live forever.
i was watching a doc on OJ where it said back in 94 after the murders,
he legit got on a plane with no issues like what we deal with today.
if we had another 9/11 but in this century,
the sequel tho…

i wish someone would have pulled this girl to the side during this time.

Sometimes,
I wish God would yell “pure chaos” and make everyone vanish.
On some Wanda Maximoff shit so we could start this shit over.

We are clearly off the beaten path.

the other side of the rih’s social media is a dangerous place.
i loved seeing everyone paying bail for blue face’s main harem member,
chrisean rock:

WOULD HAVE A BABY AND IT WOULD CHANGE HER FOR THE BETTER.
SHE’LL CLEAN UP,
TAKE A BATH,
AND BE A GOOD MOTHER OUTSIDE OF HER EX.

i knew that was bullshit because she ain’t even sat in a therapist chair.
everyone was hyping her up as she did exactly what i knew would happen.
i don’t know why she was invited to some streaming shit recently,
but twitch had to ban her because…

take from me,
it can be challenging to run a website.

For me,
I’ve been dealing with so much shit in real life for the last two years.
I been pushed and pulled in so many directions,
suffered from serious burnout,
and was on legit auto pilot trying to get it together.
Its just me having to deal with all of it.

i haven’t done it all right because when i’m burnout i wanna be left alone,
but i’m lucky to have amazing and top tier friends/supporters who give me grace.

the stress can be heavy and realistically,
selfish people just won’t get it.
aah,
it’s similar to:

Working at a job and needing a vacation but using up your sick days because you need time off.
When you use up all your sick days and have no vacation days,
it can feel like a prison you start rebelling from.

or:

Everyone asking you when you’re gonna have kids and you’re trying to keep your checking account from going overdraft.

so i understand the owner of myvidster but at the same time,
i don’t understand what is happening.
sometimes,
i check to see if myvidster and i see:

“Power Meow activating”

what THEEEE FUCK does that even mean.
i go on there again and i see this:

people fake it until they make it all the time.
that is what i was told about corporate america.

“Play the game to win!”

…while i watched all of those people who played get fired or laid off.
all that kissing ass,
throwing employees under the bus,
and suckin’ dick after hours for nothing.
how embarrassing!

when i heard the minnesota assassin hyena,
vance luther boelter,
worked for tim walz,
i cringed at the connection because i just knew.
they all started fonting he was a “dem gone rogue“.
i had a feeling that was all bs as we live in the timeline of:

“Fiction before facts”

the sky is actually purple,
pigs can fly,
and j.lo is a classically trained sanger.
in reality…

i miss the days when vixens understood their pussy has power.
even tho i have a powerful Foxhole,
one of my fav “pussy power” lyrics as a young black gay millennial:

“If you ain’t lickin’ this,
you ain’t stickin’ this and I got witnesses.
Ask any pineapple I been wit.
They ain’t hit shit til they stuck their tongue in this.”

that shit felt empowering and it was also matching male’s energy.
i remember my straight wolf friends were on some:

“I AIN’T EVER EATIN NO PUSSY BUT YOU GOTTA SUCK MY DICK”

…but then i found out they were all eating pussy secretly.
the tone and vibe in the 90s were vixens taking their pussy back.
madonna
janet
kim
foxy
they were letting males know their pleasure and coins comes first.
in a 2025 forest where red pill males are showing they hate pussy,
and steadily cheering on the rights to their pussies being taken away,
i feel like we need pussy power music more than ever.
i’m a casual sabrina carpenter listener.
i LOVE “expresso“,
which is a love spell if you really listen to it,
and “please please please“,
but i STANNED this song from her last album before “short n sweet”.

i had this shit on repeat for days.
when sabrina carpenter showed her album cover for “man’s best friend“,
i wanted her to literally stand TF up because…

Yikes.
I do NOT like this picture of Angelica Ross.
I’ve seen her do better.

in all of the years i fonted with The Foxhole,
i’ve never put up any pictures of work wolf and me.
hell:

The NFL Baller Wolf and me.

can i just font i’m so proud of myself for bagging that big wolf?
one: boundaries.
two: my desire to show evidence about (past) penis i was into is really low.
angelica ross is “one of those”.
the type who can’t hold water to save their own life.
i think it stems from trauma of not being seen.
believe it or not,
but many trans vixens and gays suffer from the same trauma.
so now,
she wants us to see her even at the expense of others.

She is also crazy AF but that’s a whole other story.

she put up this picture of michael b jordan but the way she captioned it…