while watching 50 shades of grey today,
i had to ask myself:

“would i let a baller wolf do this to me?”

as sexy as i like a wolf to control me,
and i’m not afraid to tied up in the sake of pleasure,
christian grey came off as a damn near an emotional abuser.
okay so (and kinda spoilers)…
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“i wait for you to come online.
to tweet.
post a picture.
to say something.
anything.
i watch from afar,
but i feel like i know you.
i think about you all the time.
you actually make me so hot.
you know how many times i imagined you eatin’ me?
fuckin’ me?
more times that i can count.
i don’t even know you,
but i like you.
i just know your name.
nothing else…”

being online has given us the opportunity to crush a lot harder.
i know it has for me.
instead of seeing this wolf on the street,
and holding onto the mental snap shot,
i can now head to his instagram and screen shot his image.
he doesn’t even have to fuck my brains out.
i can look at his shirtless pictures and use my imagination.
the thing is that these images of the wolves i want,
we want,
are allowing us to live vicariously through a fantasy.
this new age of being legal stalkers is easier than having the person 4real.
ya know…
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my boss was in meetings all day.
my liar liar was not in the office.
my mind was somewhere else today.
i felt sad or something.
its the process…
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i’m about to confess something.
are you ready?
okay.
oh and don’t judge me!
okay?
i’m ready now.
here goes…
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so i had an “aha” moment laying in the bed last night.
i was thinking heavy about the #beingmaryjane episode.
it was actually about “the curious” we meet as we navigate in our forests…
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you aren’t ready for love.
i’m not either.
not the way some of us carrying on.
myself included.
we have these fantasies of our perfect “potentials and prototypes”.
i post about them ever so often.
he looks like what we want to feel like on the inside.
we think because is so handsome,
and that his bawdy is together,
that he will the key to activating what we are missing inside.
hell a majority of them are worse off mentally and emotionally than us.
well i had a lot of thoughts about it last night.
i had to wonder if i haven’t found a wolf because i’m not ready for one?
lets say i got that crush from my job,
or anyone of the crushes from my past,
and he fucked me completely stupid and never called me again,
would i REALLY be able to handle that?
probably not.
not where i am right now in life.
have i been looking for someone to love me,
to see the beauty in me,
rather than me learning to truly love myself?
i had to wonder…

Can a “potential” teach you how to love yourself?

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