…and folks wonder why people are so homophobic.
growing up around straights judging everything i did was not easy for me.
it left me hating myself and wishing i wasn’t so detectable.
i was a beacon in attracting some fine ass DLs but outside of that,
life was pretty much hell.
The Foxhole knows the story.
i can imagine what its like being straight and accused of being gay.
shannon sharpe caught some gay strays when he got out of a car…

i was sitting here this morning,
reflecting before i started my day over a dream i had about work wolf.
i had to answer a question during shadow work and i conjured him from the emotional dead.

It made me realize how much of a Pick-Me I use to be.

yes i was.
i was a pick-me with no boundaries who was desperately trying to get picked.
in order to find yourself,
you gotta risk embarrassment but i ain’t embarrassed.
i’ll write it in big font:

I use to be a Pick-Me!

a pick-me can look like whatever or whoever and come from any social background.
there are plenty of IG attentionistos,
some of the baddest you ever seen,
that are putting up with all kinds of shit just to be chose.
you see how many of them get caught up being thirsty for sex.
so when i see charlamagne talmbout miss lady in the “who tf did i marry” saga…

Sometimes,
I feel like I’m gonna wake up and I’m gonna be back at my mother’s crib.
She is gonna be alive because it’s gonna be 1999.
I won’t remember anything that transpired before this.
It’s all gonna be a fever dream but it’s God reset.

some black folks in the country confuse me tbh.
trump came out with the insurrection 6s and they’re targeted to black people:

trump spoke at the black conservative federation gala,
which is a contradiction all in it’s own,
and he says…

we don’t font or talk about mental illness in this country enough.
orlando brown is clearly mentally ill but…

What if he is telling the truth?

devil’s advocate,
of course.
he claims that he has taken down many of the black male celebrity wolves we know…

as a millennial,
i pulled up to see my gen x legend give us a performance.
usher has been a part of many of our lives since we were young.
he has done some dumb shit over the years that has gotten him caught up.
see what i did there?
he’s like bey with songs that bring back hella memories.

Sidebar: I’m listening to Confessions and I am taken back to a time when I was getting over someone.
I couldn’t listen to this album for a long time but it still sounds so fresh as it did in 2004.

i remember when “yeah” dropped and all the white wolves lost their shit.
that song in the club use to activate peak “copy the video” too.
so when i see…

One of the greatest falls in black history.

jonathan majors did alla dis,
tried to change the way we viewed masculinity in america,
only to end up being viewed as the power player of his demise in hollywood.
Lawd.
so his exes all came out with stories of abuse.
jonathan already told me who he was and i chose to believe it.
i’m choosing to believe the type of vixens that he is really into.
these are his alleged exes…