when our electronics are moving funky,
it usually helps to turn them off and on again.
if they’re acting like real assholes,
you need to do a full reset.
my emotional hard drive has been moving like a real asshole.
my sleep pattern was all fucked up because of it.
i was going to bed early but waking up at like 4 or 5 am.
throughout the day,
i was throwing up when i started feeling anxious,
which included the early morning hours when i woke up.
i was mixing different kinds of pills to help me sleep.
benadryl,
cbd oil,
and melatonin concoctions and still wasn’t sleeping correctly.
all it did was make me groggy and sleepy in the day.
i wasn’t doing anything my therapist was recommending.
there was no motivation for life and the betterment of myself period.

Yo favorite fox was struggling silently out here.

you never know what people are going through and shamed to admit.
so i decided i had a problem and…

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“you up baby?”
that is what this one wolf i use to talk to would call me after or around 1 am.
you know in the foxhole that “11 pm to 3 am entertainment” is when the sex happens.

“OH YEAH!
I’M UP!
WASN’T SLEEPING AT ALL!” – me

…when i was damn well sleeping.
we would proceed to have the best phone sex i think i’ve ever had with a wolf.
i adore a wolf with a really nice voice.
one that sounds like music in my ears and the tingles for my private parts.
if he licks his lips as he talks nasty to me,
i’d probably explode in my own cum.
a foxholer sent me a video from a tiktoker,
muhammed ayers aka mr. ayers,
that came right on time tbh…

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it’s hard to just “be” when we want to impress everyone we meet.
if you wanna be a shitty person then be that person.
here is the thing with me,
i might not like or fuck with you because you’re a shitty person…

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every celeb has a “flop era“.
even our favs have had a moment where it didn’t look good.
that is when their movies,
shows,
or albums all flop like a fish outta water.
many of us laugh at them and like to say “they’re over“.

question: Why do we do that?
Laugh and kick people when they’re down?

…but it takes one role or hit album to get someone on top again.
sometimes a really good scandal pushes them back on top after years of being paid dust.
^that tweet spoke to me today.
i had to wonder about myself…

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most of us have triggers.
if you don’t or have worked through yours,
then congratulations.
the rest of us either keep it under control or react nastily when confronted by them.

for me…

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there are certain people who see you as “the threat“.
people have tried to destroy others over jealousy and envy.
you didn’t necessarily do anything to provoke them.
you were just being you and they hated it.
i’ve been labeled “the threat” on countless occasions.
i’ll start out really cool with some folks,
but suddenly:

Jamari Fox is a threat

i’ve been on the threat status because:

Males they wanted have shown signs of wanting to smash me stupid
People genuinely took a liking to me
They got intimidated by my talent

all kinds of weirdo shit,
but here i am thinking the person is cool af and i’m cheering them on.
the thing about me…

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