we never talk about grieving enough.
when you hear the word “grieve”,
you think it comes from mourning the death of a loved one.

“I grieved the loss of Star Fox.”

…but we don’t actually realize that we can grieve a living person.
we grieve the loss of people who are still alive in many different ways.
i’m grieving today…

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sometimes,
when i go on social media,
i often realize many people are stupid af.
they spread opinions and biases that some folks follow as facts.
no one does their research but acts like lemmings on a cliff.

in my life,
when i feel like shit is hitting the fan,
i have also been prone to following my own opinions or bias.
in therapy,
my therapist will stop me and ask…

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they don’t make tv like ^this nowadays.
my mother use to watch this show called melrose place when i was a kid.
she never let me watch because it was “too adult”.
i decided to start binging the show earlier last month.
i’m legit on the second season now.
why?…

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i’m actually kinda glad cleiton lobo got exposed yesterday.
not because i am trying to create chaos,
but it serves as another learning lesson…

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one day soon,
people will tell everyone about how they know me.
they’ll shout to the mountaintops:

“I KNEW JAMARI WAY BACK WHEN!
HE WAS SO GREAT!
HE WAS SO KIND TO ME!”

… even those who hurt me will tell a different story.
they might tell the same story including the ones i may have hurt too.

Making all those within The Foxhole proud would mean so much to me tho.

you guys have honestly seen a more real side to me than folks i know irl.
so for you all to witness my success would be awesome.
jonathan majors is hitting his stride and for good reason.
tam’ron hall brought him back to a time when he was a star in the making.
someone from his past joined in that knew he was destined to make it…

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before i start on nicki minaj,
i have to font that:

I really like her new song,
Red Ruby Da Sleeze.

the fact she used one of my favorite beats/song from summer’s past:

this brings back so many good memories.
i didn’t even know rolling loud was this weekend.
i saw no hype for it on my timeline tbh.
i saw some videos from nicki’s set and…

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