i woke up out my sleep and this idea came to me…
so you know how i did the whole podcast thing?
i wanted to try something different in this era.
there are some things i want to actually say out loud to you.
i don’t know where this will go or if i’ll even keep up with it,
but i was led into doing this…

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i think outing does the opposite effect in certain situations.
when people are outed for simply being themselves,
it ends up making others feel empathy and compassion.
so the outer gets banished while the outed gets praised and supported.
rapping wolf,
isaiah rashad,
got outed last year.
( x see it here )
he got major support from many of his peers.
he addressed his outing at coachella during his set…
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i have always been a temp.
whew.
there are “a-ha” moments all through this entry so stay tuned.
i don’t know when i got into temp work,
but i know i started my corporate temp career when i lived in boston.
i was told how easy it was to get a job by being a temp.

“If you show up and show you are good at the position,
they will most likely hire you.
I got hired for my job and I started out as a temp.”

looking back,
it came off as pick me behavior.
some jobs i got were legit temp for like a few days,
but others were “temp to hire” which i usually gravitated to.
so i usually did what jamari would do…

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i have been a silly hoe.
not in the literal sense,
depending on which era of my life i was in,
but i was giving a part of me away for “something”.
i was spreading myself far and wide for love and affection.
when i looked at how many bodies i collected,
and how we were all virtual strangers at this point,
i realized that these folks don’t need direct access to me anymore.
so in my new rebrand,
restart,
and rebecoming…

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perspective.
i’ve been listening to aaliyah’s “one in a million” album since its release last week.
it made me listen to other 90s teen r&b around that era too.
if you’re on the ig foxhole,
you can tell i’m down the rabbit hole with my stories.
aaliyah’s 20th death anniversary was yesterday and i still cannot believe its been that long.

My mother died the same year.
9/11 was the same year too.

even through all those events,
i’m still here even when i thought i would have killed myself a long time ago.
of course,
with any death anniversary,
i went down the rabbit hole of aaliyah’s short life and death.
i saw this clip of dame dash,
her ex,
from an et memorial special yesterday…

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yesterday had me pretty beat.
i had to wake up early because i had another appearance on tmz,
which will mark my 11th (or 12th) appearance on their platform,
but my segment ended up getting canceled.
the night before,
i had an amazing time meeting with the foxhole book club.
due to anxiety that riled up tho…
Continue reading “the foxhole book club ended up being more than i could imagine! (support group?)” →