i’m not one to stay angry for too long.
i’m a cancer so i can hold a grudge,
but i’ve learned to let shit go.
folks can be bitter and age like a banana over beef if they want to.
after a while,
i move forward.
just because someone is a dork doesn’t mean i need to be one too.
if the wound is still fresh,
i want all the smoke.
once it heals tho,
i can see you in a public setting and be cordial.
Just because someone is a dork doesn’t mean I need to be one too.
my goal is to make them look dumb as possible since they wanna act like an idiot.
imagine me having to tell the story about how horrible someone treated me,
yet i showed them nothing but love.
so i got a call today about mi,
someone who i was angry about for a long time…
her aunt told me how good she has been doing.
she has been taking her meds and her cousin has been on her.
they have been traveling and doing all kinds of cool shit.
i’m happy for her.
her aunt said she wants a relationship with me again.
it’s not like she has been acting an entire fool anymore,
which is why i separated myself in the first place.
she hurt me,
but i’m not hurt anymore.
i’ve been healed from that.
i got a question that i had to think about:
“I think it would be nice if you came through to surprise her for her birthday coming up.”
i’m thinking about doing it.
i dunno yet tho.
i haven’t seen her in a few years now.
my last memory of her was a bad one so this will be a new start.
it made me wonder about reconnecting with those who hurt us.
they say time heals all wounds and we should be let bygones be bygones.
what if nothing has changed and it’ll be the same once they get comfortable?
can a leopard truly change its spots?
or are the old spots just skillfully hidden under new fur?
i had to wonder…
Can people truly change from their past bad behavior with you?
i’ve been fooled before.