“Take your hoodie off, why you hide your face from me?
Make your fuckin’ mind up, I am sick of waitin’ patiently…” – Tyler the Creator, Boy With a Gun*
this past weekend,
i listened to tyler the creator‘s entire discography.
i was legit obsessed.
“wolf” was my shit when it came out,
but i listened to more sad pop/r&b vixen shit that i put it on the sidelines.
i was completely blown away by his album,
“igor”.
WHERE TF WAS I WHEN THIS CAME OUT?
*pulls up release date*
may 17th 2019
yup,
i was listening to something sad pop or r&b vixen.
this album feels like therapy to me right now cause…
The album centers around a bisexual character named Igor,
who happens to be Tyler’s dark side.
He is in love with a male who is still in love with his ex, a vixen.
the songs tell a story of him wanting the dude’s attention and love,
but the male is focused on his ex.
as the songs go on,
it starts to show his moving on and trying to understand his hurt.
REAL
MUHFUCKIN
SHIT
THE
FOXHOLE
CAN
ALL
RELATE
TO
the album before that,
flower boy,
deals with him coming to terms with his alleged bisexuality.
either way,
this shit is getting me through but it feels different.
i’m gonna font something controversial but…
I see why more males listen to hip-hop or male-centered music
vixens singing makes me feel sad and dwell on the hurt.
why did this dude hurt me?
why did he leave?
what did i do wrong?
should i beg for him?
males make me sad but then “fuck that wolf cause i’m the shit“.
i don’t dwell because i am more focused on “i am” statements.
i am better.
i am gonna move on.
i am the prize.
i am gonna glo up.
i am moving forward.
i don’t know if i’m making sense.
it might be the therapy tho.
these two songs are my shit:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RpnNK5xq1M
check out his album,
igor:
It’s interesting that you posted this, because I had a revelation recently too. And that is, listening to certain types of music literally keeps you in a specific state of mind! And for that reason, I can’t even listen to older songs that I used to anymore. Or even listen to certain artists whom I used to love anymore either. And yes, you’ve summed up exactly everything that I’ve been realizing and coming to terms with myself. I find myself being drawn more to “strong, aggressive, powerful music.” That gives you that “get up and go” type of feeling. Like “if he don’t want me? Fuck it! I’ll be just fine. I’ll be alright!” But when I do come out of this, and glow up, don’t come back over here! Because I’ll cut you down to size so bad, you won’t have an appetite!” LOL Ya know? This is the type of vibe that I’m on in this day and age! And yes. You’re correct, listening to more, “I AM” affirmations programs you. It literally pulls you up. And helps you to recognize, that with God on your side, you are the prize. You don’t need or have to have someone making you doubt your self-worth. Because they ain’t make or can’t break you. 💯🔥
^ SEE YOU GET IT!!!
i realized a lot of the music i was listening to was making me feel low vibrational.
like,
the music is good but if i’m not going through heartbreak,
why am i trying to channel it on a random tuesday?
or on the way to a job?
or just chillin in my crib?
i been listening to more hiphop from males and it did something to my energy.
even if its a break up song,
there is still a level of strenght and aggression within the album thats needed.
i’m not saying we can’t listen to those songs,
but i feel like too much of it puts you in a bad place.
i don’t want to feel sad anymore.
i wanna feel hopeful.
i wanna move forward.
i wanna feel like “his loss”.
^ “I find myself being drawn more to “strong, aggressive, powerful music.” That gives you that “get up and go” type of feeling. Like “if he don’t want me? Fuck it! I’ll be just fine. I’ll be alright!” But when I do come out of this, and glow up, don’t come back over here! Because I’ll cut you down to size so bad, you won’t have an appetite!” LOL Ya know?”
that is exactly how i’m feeling these days.
Ditto.👏❤️🌹