this weekend has been legit hell for me.
imagine it being good friday and shit wasn’t good.
i had book club stuff to do,
edits to the podcast,
and i had to write some entries.
it seemed God had other plans for me and it wasn’t good…
i woke up friday and i was good,
but throughout the day,
my neck/shoulder on my left side started to hurt.
it was hard for me to turn my head or make slight movements.
it was bad as hell.
i didn’t sleep all night.
i was up the whole night in pain as i watched the clock.
every position i tried to sleep in did not work.
on saturday morning,
i woke up and i couldn’t even move my head.
Thats when the panic attack happened.
none of the pills i took worked and there was no relief to the pain.
for whatever reason,
it felt the walls were closing in on me.
i felt stuffy,
and my legs started to give out shortly after.
all i know is that one minute i was on the couch and the next i was on the floor.
When I got up off the floor and sat back on the couch,
I noticed that I was covered in blood.
blood was everywhere.
i had busted my chin after i fainted.
that is the thing with adrenaline.
you never know you’re injured until you see the blood.
so not only did i aggravate my pain by that fall,
i was also leaking heavy.
the pain isn’t as bad and the leaking finally stopped.
thank God my friends were there for me.
i was in too much pain to update,
but i felt some relief so i wanted to let you know what was going on.
I’m on rest mode and i’ll brb.
lowkey: this past week was a shit show.