i don’t think i did this.
i mean i did it in the comments,
but i wanted to say this in an entry…

i am extremely thankful for everyone who left comments,
sent me emails,
and kept me in their prayers.
this has been a tough week 1/2.
i had no appetite,
lost a ton of weight,
and been in the darkest place in my life in a long time.
i didn’t even recognize myself.
it was that bad.
i’m now starting to rise again.
find my sword and armor again.
i’m getting a taste for food again.
wanting to experience life again.
i laid in bed today and read every comment and email today.
taking everything in to start fresh w/o….
i don’t know when i will heal completely,
but i keep remembering he is here in spirit.
my angel.
you all will become the new “him”.
the one i run to when i have no one.
the one i will tell good news first.
the road won’t be so lonely…

lowkey: i woke up today giving absolutely no fucks about anything.
i’m ready to fuck this shit up.
i don’t give a fuck about the naysayers,
the non believers,
the shit talkers…
fuck them because they don’t know shit.
i lost my best friend.
my parents are gone.
i’m alone.
that gave me the fuel i needed to go harder.