i really don’t like giving up.
that might be a gift and a curse when it came to people or jobs.
i’ve stuck around with filth way past its expiration date.
as you know,
ive been on the hunt for a new therapist.
every time i said i was gonna give up,
i’m led to a new direction in finding one.
i had my first assessment with a new one today and…
when my foxy senses are telling me to chill,
i always listen and sit still.
an answer is coming.
my spirit was not with the search for a new therapist just yet.
i didn’t give up but i was over the whole process.
the company with that last bozo of a
therapist social worker kept calling me,
but i continued to ignore their calls because i didn’t like how it all went down.
something told me to answer their call and i’m glad i did…
i was about to dip because she was late.
it was 9:10 am and my new therapist wasn’t there.
i was promptly there at 8:58 am for my first therapy assessment.
i’m (fashionably) late,
but a fox was one time for this go around.
at 9:20 am,
she finally arrived and by the time we ended the session…
The Universe is always listening,
but we have to ask so the things we want will be given.
it has been hell looking for a new therapist.
i’ve sent countless emails and made some cold calls.
“Gone Til Next November”
so i told myself that i was gonna let it go.
i didn’t want to put any more pressure on my plate.
so i put it on the back burner and felt myself move on.
as i was checking emails today…
i’ve been feeling creatively retarded these last few days.
my mind has been on overdrive with everything i need to do.
i barely sleep because i’m constantly thinking of what’s next.
i’ve been trying to remember what dr. turner taught me.
on days that i have no creative energy,
i take a day(s) to figure things out.
i started my new journey in finding another therapist…
today is the last time we would be meeting up.
i’ve been sad about it for the last few weeks,
but it would be selfish of me to try to hold onto someone who needed to go.
i didn’t cry,
but i felt this joy with the idea of this new me getting back into the world.
Jamari Fox is back on the market.
he spoke so highly of me before we officially ended it…