Shawn Mendes admitted recently he is still trying to figure his sexuality out.

i get it.
there was a point where i was in the prison of the struggle.
in a few ways,
i still struggle.
sometimes,
i think many gay folks forget what the stuggle was/is like.
before we became “yassified” and hungry little animals for cum,
there was a fearful place of “nah i’m good” to anything remotely gay.
i’ll never forget…

a few years ago,
and “name annoying ass job here“,
i was frustrated with the current surroundings.
the job was stressful and i was at my wits end.
a white vixen that i was cool with would always come to my desk to chat.
she was trying to start a fan page over her primal lust for sebastian stan.

i wonder if she smashed him yet.
she was obsessed.
at this point,
i never told her about the foxhole but i mentioned i had a website.
she was unsure about how to get sponsors for her endeavors.
i started to vent about how nervous i was to pursue them for mine.
she said something that made me realize how differently we saw things…

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when we are going through it,
everyone else looks shiny and new.
you’re home; they’re out
you’re broke, they’re buying versace
you’re single; they’re riding the d train to countless orgasms
usually when this is happening,
we are in an emotional desert and our minds are playing tricks on us.
every single time that i look at others and feel sudden insecurities,
like i’m missing out or my life really sucks compared to,
they end up telling me how…

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ya know,
a couple years ago,
i said to myself:

“Jamari,
if some shit goes wrong tomorrow,
you have no money saved.
You are literally assed out.”

…and it took me down a rode of saving and understanding how credit works.
i’m still learning,
cause Lord knows i love to buy shit,
but i had to reel it back.
as black folks,
many of us were never taught how to save money for a rainy day.
we often get blinded by those who are flexing on social media,
but the rona has exposed how many were living paycheck to paycheck.

What businesses were basically paycheck to paycheck

gabrielle union took to “the jasmine brand” to talk about how the rona is effecting black hollywood.
it left me feeling two types of ways…
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most folks don’t ever talk about their “in between” phase.
you ever notice that?
the “in-between” is like the points on a “12 inch ruler.

you can think of those as the times in between the grind.
it’s from when you got into struggle and when you got out.
most folks don’t ever mention those moments.
it was a time when it either made them bitter or better.
we are so use to seeing the after tho.
the “buying gucci” and “being able to eat at stk”.
what about the times they couldn’t afford any of that?
when you was at they was at their wits end?
they don’t mention when…

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i guess…
when are worth 380 million dollars,
you don’t need to know your wording?
that was sad to actually type that.
well an f-bi sent a video of floyd mayweather struggling in an “after fight” interview.
the word?
“magnitude”.
check it out…
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