brag so hard with ^that piece of paper.
so last night i did something stupid.
it actually lead to me having a really good conversation.
one that i’m still thinking about.
last week was “gone girl”. this week is “late night conversations”. i wanted to share with the foxhole… Continue reading “Brag Now; Cry Later?”
you ever met someone who can’t sit the fuck down?
like, they always have to be everywhere.
they’re never alone because they serial date, fuck, party, or go through friends like toilet paper. well meet the extrovert. i know you met that person who is extremely quiet.
super duper shy and it may take a lot to get their out their shell.
they usually keep to themselves and mind their business. well hello there introvert.
most of the big time celebs are usually introverted. beyonce, jay z, angelina jolie, johnny depp,
and julia roberts.
they open up when it’s for work or whatever.
other than that,
they are extremely private and like it like that. breezy wolf, songzbird, evelyn lozada, kim kardashian, and charlie sheen are extroverts.
extroverts don’t think before they do something.
they also need people to help them recharge.
if you pay close attention online,
you can tell who is who.
it’s really not that hard once you read twitter timelines or see instagram photos.
so i had to ask…
i woke up this morning at 4am in a sweat.
it was kinda hot in my apartment,
because the heat been on “hoe in church with no draws on” level.
i went to sleep naked that night.
i had a funny feeling in the pit my stomach.
something didn’t feel “right”.
i get those feelings often.
i got up and went to check the locks. locked.
i walked throughout the crib to make sure no one was hiding in my closets. (ha ha ha i already hear the jokes now). nothing.
i looked at my mail on my coffee table. no current or overdue bills. restaurant ads and junk mail.
my apartment was clean.
i gave a quick thanks to god. he has provided me so much and i am truly grateful.
i laid on my couch. what was this feeling i was having? why was i having it?
i wasn’t use to it.
then it hit me!
i was feeling the effects of “my house was in order”. i had no drama in my life. i’m not getting fucked on the regular, but i don’t have to worry about some bullshit ass wolf. no struggling to pay bills. food was in my fridge. i’m unemployed, but i was still making it. i cut off all the dead weight. i erased a ton of useless contacts in my phone.
so why was i feeling like this?
why was i up at 4am, naked, and still stripping myself down looking for something wrong?
i started to wonder…
if i am so used to things going completely left field…
Was I actually shocked when things are going right?
next to rodney harrison,
he was another “daddy baller wolf” i had a crush on.
i wanted him to beat the brakes off me when i first saw him. jevon is a dark chocolate stallion wolf…
…who is in a heap of trouble with the IRS and his mortgage…
Have you ever wondered why YOU have the problems YOU are have?
All of the arguing and the drama; broken relationships and lonely nights.
Well, as much fun as blaming others,
Maybe you need to simply blame YOURSELF.
YOU have to take a look in the mirror and ask yourself:
“WHAT DID I DO TO CONTRIBUTE INTO THIS SITUATION?”