my friends always come through for me.
i’m super emotionally connected to those in my life.
Sometimes to those who aren’t in my life any longer too.
i’ve been going throughit tbh.
this is notmy season.
things are rough right now and trying to keep my head above water.
i was in deep thought while eating chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream.
one of my favorite twitch streamers was venting over his mother’s cancer.
it made me feel like i’m not the only one dealing with nonsense. as i was into this whole thing, my phone rang and i saw it was diva.
i let it ring because i didn’t feel like talking. she called right after and i figured it must be really important…
you know it’s bad when kim kardashian exposes you. jinkies.
so it’s one thing to lie with no receipts.
you can easily say you didn’t do somethingwith no proof.
it’s another to lie,
but then have the alleged truth on a phone call played on snapchat. that’s where kim kardashian comes in. so taylor swift got exposed for her alleged lying ways.
in the media,
she was livid about the verse from ye’s “famous” song:
“I feel like me and Taylor might still have sex Why? I made that bitch famous (God damn) I made that bitch famous…”
…but behind the scenes,
it seems like she was okay with ye using it on the track.
who knows a thing or two about being recorded,
had a discussion about it on “that show” she is on:
…and posted these hints on twitter as to what was going to happen:
many people in life don’t know who they are.
at one point,
even i didn’t know who i was.
when it comes to being “gay” or even “bi”,
people don’t like to embrace it. now embracing doesn’t mean coming out the closet with poom poom shorts in tow. it also doesn’t mean you have to announce it to the world.
it simply means just knowing this is who you am and what you like.
should notbe complicated,
plus it allows you to not be so fuckin’ messy round dese parts. how does one, who is gay/bi but raised in the church, fully try to accept himself and cast out everything he was taught? corinthricleslations 123: 64 says:
thou shall not be anything BUT straight. or you go to hell. plain and simple.
well this morning i got an interesting phone call to test that theory…
somewhere between deciding if i should watch scandal or glee first, since everyone was crying over the latter, i got a phone call from someone i didn’t think i would hear from again last night. it was star fox.
a look of pure shock landed on my face.
i was hoping i’d answer the phone,
proceed to cuss him the fuck out,
and then wait for the logic explanation. spy? witness protection? bet?
i know that wasn’t gonna happen because unless he knows a good plastic surgeon, that was himwe buried a couple months ago.
when i answered,
it was mama fox.
she was crying.
“omg are you okay?” i asked. “no. no i’m not.” she responded. “whats going on?” i asked.
“Hello” – you “Wassup.” – random voice. “Who is this?” “Oh, you don’t know who this is?” “Naw… should I?” “It’s Damon.” “Oh!…. wassup. I haven’t from you in like 3 weeks… where you been?” “My b shorty, I lost all the contacts in my phone and ….”
He says he is going to call you back after what seemed like great conversations and then, no phone call.
Why do dudes do this?
This is why I am glad I didn’t really put as much feelings into Big. He started out great. His life story made me feel “something” and I quietly became attracted to his strenght. Our last great conversation was about our pasts and how similar they were. He would have been definite “Hubby material” regardless of age.
BUT – the night we were suppose to meet was the night things went downhill.
He tells me meet him @ the train station. I didn’t want to meet him that night BUT he was putting on the Zip Lock pressure. I said “Fuck it”, got ready, and out the door I went. I even walked slow to kill some time.
FOXES – when I was arriving the train station, he calls me to tell me that he cannot meet me and that an emergency came up. So because of this dumb ass type nigga, I walked all the way there and had to turn around. Mad was not even the word. Ever since then, our conversations have been weak and he hasn’t been returning phone calls.
I know what that means:
“Miss one, next fifteen one coming.”
What gets me if that he was interested and then FUCKS it up by being sloppy. Thank God these men never get a whiff of the good stuff.
… And now Married Guy is tryna get at me harder than before. One person I dismissed because I wanted a man of my own, no sharing.