that feeling when…
someone you were once cool with…
someone you had a bond with…
someone you thought was different than the rest…
leaves your life with no explanation.
not only that,
but they act like you don’t exist to them anymore.

they turn their head as you walk by
tries to avoid you
suddenly becoming distant and closed off

they hold what you did wrong as their own secret.
no way can you even explain yourself or even fix the issue.
everything is left unsaid.

that is my relationship with work wolf as of this moment.
it would be better if i didn’t have to see him everyday.
the silent treatment brings back many memories for me…
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i believe rumors are started from four key ingredients:

truth
lies
hurt
the obvious

i’ll tell you how…
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“are you okay?”

that is one of the texts from mi i got right after i closed my laptop last night.
i shouldn’t be asked if i’m “okay”.
are you serious?
you hurt me and ask me i’m okay?
bitch…
so this is how it went down last night.
if i’m in the wrong,
please let me know…
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in this life,
we have three options:

find a potential
find a potential for right now
die alone

added: dressing nice and never trying to catch any diseases.
we encounter many wolves,
foxes,
and hybrids.
some out.
some “straight”.
some curious.
its like we spend our days putting our lives to the side for “someone”.
it can leave many of us emotionally drained,
exhausted,
and not feeling worth anything.
in looking back in my life,
i can see i have always chased wolves.
i wanted this big bad wolf to be the cure of what i’m lacking within.
many times,
in the feelings of frustration and loneliness,
i have felt half crazy.
asking myself what the hell am i even doing this for?
and will i be alone for the rest of my life?
i can see why many of “us” either go insane,
become unapologetic thots,
or go “straight” and live a lie for companionship.
i had to wonder…

Can this life make you crazy?…

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i had a rough month in june.
like its been bills “this”,
slight drama at work “that”,
boss going crazy “this”,
and other issues to make me throw up my hands “that”.
i have been extremely exhausted when i get off of work.
i even cried in the bathroom stall today because everything hit me at once.
i didn’t want to tell “this story”,
but i needed to vent for this story.
 i’m sure it may help someone else…
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am i the only one who gives everyone the benefit of the doubt?
okay hear me out…

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