someone told me the reason i’m always disappointed,
and ultimately depressed,
is because of my high expectations.

jobs
wolves
folks
career aspirations

i’ve gone through life getting my hopes up about most things.
i create the “fantasy” scenario of how i’d hope things would work out.
that has been something i’ve been doing for years actually.
i figured that it was better than being pessimistic about life/love.
my parents taught me to wake up everyday and expect a great day.
welp…
it seems i might have been going about my life all wrong.
it could explain why i’ve been disappointed consistently.
so i’m starting to wonder…

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i find videos like the following to be very sad.
so i didn’t know gary houston,
whitney houston‘s brother,
was allegedly addicted to drugs.
well i found out yesterday when an f-bi sent me the following article:

Whitney Houston Brother Caught Unconscious Outside Drug Den In Video

…courtesy of radar online.
of course,
i saw “drug den” and had to see wtf was up.
well in the video was so depressing to me.
it showed gary,
allegedly high af,
in his suv.
check it out below…
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i don’t know how pineapples can get “this” high,
especially at a job where others can record and laugh at your silly ass.
well the following hyena did this hoodrat behavior and well…
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there was a time when star fox and i were not speaking.
it was very early in our friendship.
i was running with some popular straight wolves.
wolves that i thought liked me as a person.
they had me doing a lot of dumb shit,
but i wanted to prove my “straightness” to the world.
well in a “fuck shyt” move,
i chose those clowns over star fox.
actually i dropped karaoke as well.
see they weren’t “straight” and “hood”.
my insecurities made me look at them as the bad guys.
well ain’t it funny…
they betrayed me and left me at the side of the road.
who came to pick me up and dust me off?
the same star fox.
karaoke also let me back in her life again.
star fox told me how much i hurt him when we finally talked about it.
it took a while to recover our friendship,
but i never did it again.
the lesson was learned.

i have been in a “post high hangover”.
it has been a lot of sleep,
water,
r&b music,
and deep thoughts.
i thought a lot about my friendship with work wolf mostly.
  i realized something…
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remind me never to get high again.
i’m still sorta high right now.
i smoked like 11 hours ago.
i got higher than i’ve ever been in all my life tonight.
yes.
i’ve smoked weed before.
i wasn’t really a fan,
but i’ve been so stressed and depressed.
when work wolf offered yesterday i said:

“well why not?”

yeah bad decision…
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mercury retrograde.
a time in life when things start to get confusing.
when mercury passes earth,
it slows down and spins backwards in retrograde.
in astrology,
mercury rules communication.
so during the three weeks this bs happens,
things in your life can get weird.
things won’t work,
they say not to start anything new,
and situations will get confusing.
my life has been absolutely confusing.
ever since may 18th,
and the last one earlier this year,
life has been one hell of a ride.
ima call it “chaos” because it was just that….
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